♥, Belikealways.

back to blogging.

2011-12-10T14:16:00.000+08:00

7 months since I touched this blog..
Many things changed, everything was different from the previous post. The present now, is something different for me. Something new. I've learnt many things, grew up and so on. It's a different me. O levels has gone by, holidays started. I'm gonna get myself a job pretty soon! :)
I'm #foreverprocrastinating
Oh well.. The Chanel now is different, definitely much lazier and fatass.

kthxbai.

Birthday birthday!

2011-05-28T16:32:00.000+08:00

Guess what! My birthday's coming. Hehe.
It's on 5 June, it's in less than two weeks time! I can't wait for my birthday! But actually, I'm not really looking forward to it. Because, I'm having my MT O levels before that. & I don't think I'll be celebrating it as if it SOOOOOO GRAND. Lolol.

This year, I guess having a meal with my parents beats anything like having chalets, bbq and so on. Never had a family dinner with my family when it's my birthday. I think I should right? :) starting I planned to have chalet, then bbq, and buffet. End up it's a family dinner + celebration of my birthday. Better than chalet, like waste of time and energy.

& It's boyfriend's POP DAY! Hehe. Finally after 6 months he pop-ed. My policeman boyfriend. Hahaah. Love him ttm. Congrats to him! :)

Brother's graduation and in his robe! He graduated from his course of Real Estate Business. Congrats to him. Hehe.
He's gonna go in NS pretty soon too, botak ah. Hehe.

I'll make a scheduled post on what I want for my birthday! Hehe. I don't expect LV/Gucci. It's just a post for those who wna buy gifts for me but unsure what I like.

Disclaimer: If you think that I'm shameless, your problem. Nobody asks you read it nor copy what I'm doing and what I want. I don't care if you like me or not. It's your problem, just keep it to yourself and stop defaming me behind my back.

Hope my Jolene baby and Yvonne mummy will celebrate with me. :)

happy birthday to you, happy birthday babyboy.

2011-03-09T16:54:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to Grandma on 5th March!

Happy 20th Birthday to my bf, Junhao on 6th March!

May all your wishes come true.

It's march now! So long since I've blog. I shall blog once in a fortnight if I can. I've been so busy with school, family and bf! So many celebrations going on this month, birthdays, awards day, so on. Look at the mess above in the background, it was a birthday card for bf, and I really made a mess out of everything!

Last friday, bf and me had dinner w his family! His sister is flying to Germany to further her studies and a form of celebration for bf's birthday. It was funny how they joke around. On saturday, bf and me went t Sakae Sushi to celebrate his birthday, He surely had fun tho the unexpected always happen.

After Sakae Sushi, we head over to the dinner of Grandma's birthday at Clementi. Ate our dinner there and my brother kept wanting the focus shoot as seen below. All of us went to the washroom severals times after eating the food due to overwhelming bloat-ness.

Isn't this baby above just so cute? Aww, his my baby cousin, Win. Yes, his name surely is funny but he's justas funny on the picture above. He has super 'flabby' baby fats all around him, like a Chicken thigh! Hahaha. We had a family photo taken by bf, and it was really hilarious as we had to squeeeeeze.

Next up was bf's birthday celebration! We had a surprise for him and he told he he was shocked and surprised by it, but he tried to hide that expression of his. He's just so cute isn't he. haha! Jayden made faces as seen below on bf, it was hilarious when everybody just starts laughing around.

Alright, I'll end my post this way...
Hope anyone that are celebrating their birthday this month, be happy and may your wishes come true! :)

calls, text, internet, games, fb, twitter.

2010-12-29T14:28:00.001+08:00

BLACKBERRY OR IPHONE?

Santa Claus is coming, to town.

2010-12-19T01:53:00.000+08:00

Hello readers! (If like anyone's reading it) I'm back t blogging. Okay I swear my S.O.O.N was like ridiculously long. My apologies.

Alright, since September, I've been busy w my school work& yes exams. Also with.. My boyfriend!♥
After which I got back my results, stunned. Because I didn't manage t go up t sec 4express. I failed practically everything except MT, POA& F&N. (I swear it's not a glorious thing t talk about but I'll still say because it has become th fact already) I had a second chance t get promoted once more, which was th extend terms during th Nov hols.

During th Nov hols, we had extended term for 2weeks. All Secondary 3 students had t attend. Wonder what's my second chance like? People that were on probation(second chance in a nicer way t say you see..) had to stay from 1pm- 4.30pm or 5.30pm for extra lessons while students that are not on probation can end school @ 12noon. Tiring or what, everyday staying back till late evening, getting into buses& MRTs which you'll be packed like sardines. (Singapore's MRT is in such situation during peak hours.) People are just so mean that they don't move in because they are afraid they can't get their asses out during their stop. & Like unfortunately, I feel sick. I couldn't attend school for 2 days. & My chances of going up to 4e is much slimmer than others. But I've got no choice as I'm really sick! :( (Please bless me!)

After 2 week of extended term, I was utterly worn out. & We're packed with homeworks. I did like parts& parts so that I can enjoy my holidays while not forgetting homework too. ( It seems like a lame excuse, but no!) At least while having holidays, I do my work occasionally so I can re-test myself t memorize and understand better.

During November holidays, I went out w this baby of mine. Yeah, I'm like supposed t feature her, but we'll push it down till I finish my summary of holidays. Hahaha. We went out t Bugis for KOI, IT shows and stuffs. It feels so happy being w her cause we mess and joke around like nobody's business.

After which, I went out w Shaun, Brandon& Xiaohui t IT Shows& Flea market @ Expo during th Sitex show. Enjoyed w them, tho they went out t other places. Met Laiyou @ Expo too. Slacked w him @ th flea market& bought food to eat! Good way t end my November this way. ( I think it's good, having friends around me still. )

During Dec holidays, I had my boyfriend t accompany me all th way. Actually he accompanies me everyday, just that th timing was night time. ♥ He had t go t army like during Mid-December. Such a heartbreak matter for me. His enlistment date was 14121O, our 8th month being together. (Look! We've come till so far.) It sucks 2themax, I know. But I didn't had a choice t make either. He got into SPF, which many people say it's much more slack kind. (I felt better when knowing it was more of slack type. Heheheh ) We rushed t go places we've seldom and never been t during those 14 days. I was happy being w him, very much happy. :) On his enlistment day, he had t report early in th morning, I didn't had th chance t send him t army personally but through phone.

I cried badly, because I wasn't used having life without him& unable t contact him for many hours or even days. Many people comforted me, like Xiaohui, Jasper, Benjamin, Jayden, Liangjie, Brandon, Danny, Derrick, Angela, Kairns, Khelin, Jolene& Cindy. ♥ Thanks guys. Though I know I'm pretty much a nuisance t keep repeating th same old sentences, but your presence, makes me feel much better after some time. Though they aren't there always, at least they showed their concern. :) Though I know I'm having so limited friends, they still are friends. :) I don't need many, just a few like these people who can be there for me, not abandoning me like how others do.

When my boyfriend enlisted into army, SUAY-MAX.com
My facebook, blogger, msn, email accounts got hacked. & That hacker was cautious enough t not let me retrieve th reset password thing you know! Th hacker changed my alternative email& secret question. Like shit.com only. I reported to Facebook admin& Windows Live MSN admin. Msn admin had managed t proof that I'm th actual owner because of th sufficient info I gave. I reset my password& managed t get into Facebook& so on t reset my passwords. During that period of time, I created a new email& facebook account. So waste of time. Suck 2themax. & also, I got caught down w fever, flu& cough. My voice sound so manly now. Hahahaha! Hopefully I'll get well soon. :)

Yesterday, I went out w my family. (It's a family outing!!) So long sine we had one family outing. :) We went over t Paragon t change mummy's Gucci bag. & went t Singapore Science Centre to see dinosaurs. (Sky's favourite. hahaha!) Mum took many photos, I didn't cause wasn't in th mood t tho. Sick max. After which we headed for Macdonalds! & Met brother @ Clementi t go UE Square for Sky's enrollment for Art Zone. We headed Anchor Point for dinner @ Xinwang. Their spaghetti, was utterly sweet! Hahaha. Enjoyed my day. :)
Today, went out w Cindy Aiai t town! So long since I stepped into town. We headed t 313 t walk& EPICentre was so crowded that we had t squeeze our way in and way out. Walked about& I realised that many people's faces have that look like 'I'm better looking than you, stop looking' with th arrogant face. Hahaha, random thoughts tho. Went t Ngee Ann City& Cindy's friend wasn't there performing, & we were like made into knowing th Christmas Story @ Wisma's pathway. Hahaha. Joke max, go there you'll see my name& me wishing you Merry Christmas! :) Headed t FEP& back t Clementi for KOI & also, uncle's house warming! Headed home after that. Liangjie& friends were @ Fresh Connection, so they helped me buy 2 shirts. Like it 2themax. Thanks guys :)

JOLENE KOH WAN QI. FEATURED YOU! MEOWZ. ♥
A KISS YOU SEE!

& Lastly, for you baby! :) Take care in army. You know I'll miss you very much. :( I cried and made myself fell sick, & so many happenings, bet you've got worried. But your friends& mine are there t hold onto me. I'm not afraid of falling! I'm still not used having you not around here, because nobody tucks me into bed and wait for me t sleep, hugs me like how you do, joke and disturb me like you do, do everything for me just for me& loving me so much! :) I know army's gonna be stress and tiring for you because you've not been exercising for a long time. Take this time t train yourself t be fitter! Otherwise my baby looks so skinny like stickman! :( 6 more days before you book out& I'll be enjoying Christmas w you! :) Love you always, ♥.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Hope all of you will enjoy your Christmas!

early wishing t you guys out there! :)

Sometimes, you just gotta do some stupid things in life, to find out who the ones are who stay on and accept you.

2010-09-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's my big papers. English& MT paper 1. Wish me luck, I'm so tied down with work. & jh promised to bring me out for a breeze after tomorrow's paper& @ the end of all my papers. He made a very sweet card for me, I'll get it up on facebook& blogger in minutes. Good luck to people having their exams tomorrow. Study real hard tonight, so you wouldn't regret. i've not study tomorrow's format and etc.

Good Luck People! :)

Recently, many things happened. This had been a new journey in my life. I felt horrible for the past few days, crying so much, so hard that I could barely open my eyes one night. When I was crying alone, I felt that I didn't had anyone else to hold onto. my pillars of support, all went away. My friends, all left me, everything felt so miserable. I didn't want to face anyone or anything at all. It was a horrible pain. When I cried so hard just to numb my pain, a little hug came from my back. That hug assured me everything will be okay. Because Junhao was there. He wiped off the tears and removed agony in my heart. I was about to breakdown, when he came forward to hold onto me. He did all he could, even stuffs he had never done before, and risk his whole person, just to make me smile, make me laugh. Though he may not be the best boyfriend ever, all I know is that he never failed to try no matter how much failure steps on him, making him seemed so defeat-able. No matter how hard I came down on him, he still endured it. No matter how hard it is to make me smile, he still made all his effort to do so, despite failing so many times. Baby, thank you for everything. My darkest part of life, it wasn't anyone, but you that held onto me so tight. Letting me cry on your shoulder, letting me smile, giving me unexpected surprises. I love you. ♥

What happens, when you're struggling with your upcoming exams? You'll feel stress won't you? What will you do?
What happens, when during that struggle, you got tired and need a day of break, to relief your stress off and continue it the next day? Will your parents scold you, or will they feel that it's nothing? What will you do?
What happens, when the next moment, your teacher calls and tell you, you'll drop or retain your year when you had taken that day off? Will you feel nonchalant? Will you feel nothing at all? What will you do, how will you react?
What happens, when you're unable to express your feeling out, and tell the world you're upset? When everyone seems to push you to a corner unknowingly? What will happen to you?
It was a harsh setback for me, real harsh one. Though things weren't how I've mention in these questions. these were my thoughts towards everyone out there. I really want to know how people go through such setbacks. Isn't it painful at all as your feelings is so inconsiderable? I don't know either.

And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.

2010-09-15T19:07:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to Benjamin Lee on 9 September!

Happy birthday to Irene on 12 September!

Happy birthday to Weirong on 13 September!

Happy upcoming birthday t my baby bro, Sky on 22 September!
& Lastly, HAPPY FIFTH MONTH TO BABY AND ME! :)

So many birthdays recently. I guess September has many birthday babies don't they? Facebook has been prompting more than 10 people's birthday every since September started! Happy birthday to all September babies, hope all of you enjoyed your birthdays, haha!

I hope everyone's mugging their way through too. I'm suppose to be studying, yet I'm blogging. Can't stand any longer upon studying, the topics are so dry that I could fall asleep anytime. Hopefully I can catch up with my work! I've been sick for a week, and finally went t see doctor today because my nose is unbearable! My throat is swelling real painful that even a swallow of saliva, hurts me 2themax.

Recently, there are so many events going on, so much work piled up for me. I've no time to get myself out of this and take a break. Even the littlest nagging, I could barely control my emotions of not getting upset. Didn't managed to celebrate my fifth month with boyf due t our works. Baby, our 6th month will be better yeah? :D haha.

Gotten presents for baby, and baby got presents for me too! He's so sweet, making th effort t do things for me and not sleeping! Love him so much! Though my present isn't a real nice one, just decorations w a sweet gift from me t him inside, he smiled so widely and cuddled me with his warm hug saying a thank you.

Well, baby brother's birthday is coming up, I've no idea what t get for him. He has gotten whatever he wants from mum& dad. I guess I could only get him some unique and cute stuffs @ Vivo which I've seen it. It tremendously cute, but I don't know if it will suit him.

Anyway, do give me your feedbacks upon this question from me. Is Portable Iphone Charger(External Battery) good to sell online? As I'm thinking of selling it @ a lower price than retail outlets. :)

All I need is my one star in the sky, to wish for you everyday.

2010-09-12T00:27:00.001+08:00

I'm currently busy these few days! Pardon me for being semi-hiatus. Currently using brother's lappy t blog, boyfie and th rest are playing M-A-H-J-O-N-G now. Recently, went out with boyfie to Marine Parade, Aljunied, Toa Payoh, etc. I had a fruitful holiday week! But I've not done any of my homework, how! :(

Can we waive off all th homework we're having because there's too much stress and pressure? hehe. I'll love my teachers if we could. Anyway, I'll be mugging for th next few weeks. FOR MY EXAMS! :) Gonna meet boyfie and my babies lesser and lesser already! Gosh, I should make up those time for them another day like seriously.

Recently, boyfie and me had many problems, but we've sorted everything out, and I'm glad that everything turned out good. For my darling and his boyf (boyfie's friend), I hope things will go out fine too. There'll always be a sunshine after every rain, isn't it? :)

& yes, there's something special for my darling boyfie th next few days before i part with him for my studies and his work! :) I LOVE YOU!

& TO PEOPLE OUT THERE, GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR UPCOMING EXAMS! :)
& yes, to Melvin.C and his buddis. though we're no longer friends(?) you guys have been great friends. :)

When we are in love we often doubt that which we most believe.

2010-09-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

Time's so constraining this year, too much work, too little time.
& For sure, I've been studying for th past few days, til i over tired myself. :(

I'm far off tired, like seriously. I hate the way you pressure me. I hate the way you look at me as if nothing's wrong when you know there's something amiss. I hate the way you make me upset, knowing I need your comfort, your presence. I want your presence because being alone make me think a lot, because I'm overly paranoid.

credits to- smilesaregolden.tumblr.com

I want to hear it from your lips, that you're still loving me, fighting to keep me. Telling me you'll wipe away those tears of mine and hug me telling me everything will be okay. I'm tired, truly tired of crying. Cause these tears aren't meant to fall this way.

credits to- smilesaregolden.tumblr.com

Yes, I'm tired of listening to sound of my tears. Because you're not fighting to keep me anymore. I'm fighting to support you, keep you, you don't.

You are never strong enough that you don’t need help.

2010-09-04T21:25:00.001+08:00

Alright, lets wait for my dear girl Jolene to upload our pictures on Facebook before grabbing them here.

Yesterday Jolene & I had a superb day, didn't we? Haha. I ended dance, and headed over t meet her @ Marina Square. We had Sakae Sushi w a friend. & sure do, debate of the 3 of us went on and on continuously. It was real hilarious when the people in Sakae were giving 'whatthehellcanyouguysshutupi'mtryingtoenjoymymealhere' expression. Haha! After which, we went over t SASA t get my comb which went missing at boyf's house quite some time ago. Bought starbucks for boyf& hit down t COMEX 2010 @ Suntec Convention Hall. I must say I'm so ignorant. I didn't know this IT Show was named COMEX until my friend told me. Hahah, 'suaku' me. Went over t find boyf first! He's working v hard, I'm sure. & He's sick! :( Baby, get well soon alright!

Headed off t shopping!! & Sure do, I wasn't th one doing th spending, Jolene did all th spendings! Haha. Saw many people like Darius, Junhan(Slacker!), Joanne, Sylvia, Gary, Weijun, Alicia, Mike(Jolene's friend) & others! I wasn't feeling well there, in fact, feeling awful. Maybe there were too much people and we squeezed so much that my chest and tummy wasn't feeling good. I almost vomited when we were in th toilet! We got bored and headed down t find boyf again. & Like finally, I get t meet him and stay w him for like 5-10mins. It was better, than nothing. Isn't it? Hahah.

We headed home and yes, I took cab cause I couldn't stand waiting for anymore trains when everyone's pushing you about and squeeze in making you unable t go in th train!

& yes, we looked like twins on that day, we didn't decide what t wear together, but we came out of house w th same outfit!
I've changed my blogskin, like again. Blogger's getting awesomely high-tech now.

I miss my dearest boyf now. :( I didn't get t see him today. *heartbreaks*
'Now that I have loved so purely and deeply, I have realized how lonely I really am.' - unknown.
I agree v much upon this quote. I loved boyf so much, so purely and deeply, that all my friends left. & i've yet t know.

Oh well, I can't force people t befriend w me if they don't want t either, isn't it? :)
Goodbye!

Lovers who love truly do not write down their happiness.

2010-09-02T21:27:00.001+08:00

I doubt anyone would read this anymore, like seriously!
I miss blogging, & sure do, I'm back. :)
It's been like, 3 months since i've blogged. I miss those days. haha! But now I'm busy, way too busy to blog.
I'll be meeting some of my good flends these few days, for th IT Show! & Also, mugging comes, it's gonna be End-year-exams. I've got lots t stress for! & Good luck darlings out there! :)

I'll update whenever there's an occasion for me t, alrighty? :D I'll make sure this blog is alive, but my readers have t keep it alive too! :)
& Lastly, I love my sweet boyfie! :)

even if th whole world go against us, i'll still want t be with you

2010-06-12T21:34:00.002+08:00

my beloved baby boy.

Jolene prettylady& me!

Boyfie!&me!

Jolene& me!

Angela& Celine!

Nicholas!

Yvonne& me!

Lenz& me!

Photos are all from my birthday BBQ, & IT show outtings!
* th rest in fb @ www.facebook.com/chanelchanels

My birthday, enjoyable one! Celebrated w boyfie! Watched midnight show too & my birthday cake is pretty! D24 Ultimate cake! HAHAHA. Like a expensive only.Thanks Jolene for bringing th DSLR come too! ahaha. Had fun playing w th DSLR.

I don't really know what t post either. Let me think...
About th IT fair, super crowded! Lenz & Yvonne accompanied me on first day. Lenz& Joanne accompanied me on second day. I'm not gonna go today and tomorrow! hahah. Everywhere is crowded, people pushing you and banging you. Molesting people everywhere. IT show is something that I'll be dread t go. But I had a good experience & Lenz is gonna buy me that uber nice KEYBOARD! It costs a bomb, but yeah. He's gonna share it w James as my birthday present!

Talking about my birthday present, I receive Gucci perfume from Celine, Jasper& a sweet darling! (name not t be disclosed.) Expected, baby told them about my perfume stuffs. Though isn't th one I'm using& utter rubbish t baby saying that my perfume was used up, thanks v v much! loves.
Longyu& Melvin.C, I know didn't accompany you guys most of th time, but still you guys made th effort t come w th Everlast flats. :D Thanks!
Khelin& Marisa, thanks for th stuff toys, though you guys didn't know me v well& it was th first meetup still! :) Hope you guys enjoyed having th company of Benjamin& Junbin they all. :)

Talking about Ben, Junbin& guys, they were hilarious. Thanks Danny& Celine v v much for carrying th stuffs. haha! Danny got v v irritated by me! I kept calling him for no reason because I felt bored @ baby's house while he's taking every single thing out. Ben shoot me v v much after most people have left. :( He even shouted @ me, Ben you suck!! But @ least he made us all laugh because of th Ferrero Rocher video. Thanks too. Junbin, another hilarious one. He kept disturbing & joking around. & During IT show, i'm v v nice t buy him redbull& starbucks! *starbucks was shared by boyfie& him* haha! & th rest, thanks for attending!

ONE MORE SECTION. LAST ONE, FOR MY BELOVED BABY.
Baby! Thanks for accompanying me throughout th holidays. Being w me almost everyday. After th holidays, we can't meet as much anymore. I'll be mugging for my end year exams. You'll be working& having your nightlife again. Our 2nd month is coming up! Finally i get t last long w my guy for 2 months this year. haha! Love you v v much. You really gave in a lot and changed my life. I miss you so. I feel safe w you, though we often have dispute, but still you'll give in. You'll spoil me for all you can, love me so much. I love you, heartfelts.

I think, thats all? haha! I really don't know what t post, I feel like I'm throwing a chunk of rubbish and random thoughts into this post.
Seeya peeeeeepo.

About Me.

2010-06-05T00:10:00.021+08:00

I love rainy days, everything feels so breezy and cooling. I'm afraid of the dark, and cry whenever I feel frustrated and helpless. I don't have much friends, only a few that never fails to be my pillar of support. I'm not as strong as what you think, but these people makes me go on with life. I love having such a wonderful boyfriend. With him, life fills with happiness and love. I just want to be happy. :)

happy birthday, happy birthday.

2010-05-30T18:15:00.000+08:00

I think my blog have died& rot already, isn't it? haha!
Well, i've been busy w my MYE and yes, my boyfie& my upcoming birthday nao.
As promised, I changed my blogskin& i'll update more often. :)

LOOK AT THE ARMANI EXCHANGE WATCH. Awesomely gorgeous isn't it. I got it as my birthday present from dad! Thanks. :D Actually there was another one, but it looked more formal. I'll get someone t buy it for me next time. I swear it costs a bomb. I really loved it! Hahaha! I don't wear watch in fact, but this watch is awesomely gorgeous, I'll wear it for sure! :)

I'm down w fever& cough again. I hate being sick, like seriously. Previously was cough, fever and swollen eyes. :( I hate th weather nowadays too! It sucks totally 2themax. When it gets hot like the sun scorching right into your face, it'll be super hot. When it gets cold like rainy days, it'll be utterly cold. The weather has moods too I guess. Hahah.

My birthday's coming in.. 6 days! I can't wait to have my birthday. & I'm sure I'll enjoy th day before! hahaha. I'll be super in spirit on that day. But, I'm sick! :( I've got t get well real soon.

I'll update another day, real soon I promise. :D

if we ever meet again.

2010-05-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting, and I found you eventually.

2010-05-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

i'm back w pictures. :o! *credits above picture t ines*.
I went t her house t study, I swear, her house is awesomely beautiful. But i almost got lost on my way there! :( Studied w her, or maybe she's my 'tutor'. haha! Thanks Ines. :D

Look @ this silly of mine, he's mine. :)
He looks uber cute here, giving th pig face luh! haha, luv you!

& yes, eyes like one straight line, like a somebody ah you! haha. silly boy. luv you always.

LOOK MY LEFT EYE IS SWOLLEN AGAIN! :(

Special thanks t U.R.S inc, as my birthday is round th corner, U.R.S inc mailed this for me!
55% off their shoes, shopping ftw after my exams! :)

This is what happens when you're preparing for exams and getting over stress.

Have been hanging out much w boyf. Didn't spent time w my friends! :( Sorry guys if i've neglected you!
I'm supposed t study nao, yet i'm here. haha! I promise, after my exams & once i've changed blogskin, i'll update more often! :) & sure do, you'll see more of th silly's face for sure! I need help in my studies! Anyone help? :(

I'm over stressed, stop stressing me. YES YOU, or maybe, everyone.
I'll go berserk soon if this carries on! I'm gonna study, study& study! :)

boyf, sorry for everything!

i don't wna stress myself& you out.

no quarrels as promised, i'll give in too!

give me timeee.

luv you.

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.

2010-04-25T23:48:00.001+08:00

I wish I'm still a baby, I wouldn't have stress nor troubles t carry w everyday.

I've been having many problems and troubles recently. Of course, every trouble and problem adds stress onto me. I'm going crazy soon, literally, and only boyf knows.

Thanks Junhao♥ boyflend for being there all th time. Despite being tired and everything, you were still there t hold onto me, never letting me fall. Knowing i'm stress, you'll never ever add onto my troubles by giving me any stress, yet letting me be happy in every way you could. My endurance limit isn't high, same goes for my tolerance. But you still tried your best not t make me upset nor angry. You're different, totally different. Some of th rest, just flare up at me whenever i'm stress or troubled. But you don't, you just endure all my nonsense t you and love me so much after all. Thanks v much, i love you. ♥

Thanks classmates for being there when i cried that day. Appreciated much. Though it wasn't th whole class, at least there were half of th class that did concerned. Thanks Aisyah♥ for th hugs, luv you girl! Thanks KohTing♥ for th encouragement and sure do, your tissues! Luvs. Thanks Ines♥ for being there despite me not telling you what had happened at that moment, luvs. Thanks Yubing♥, for disturbing me all th way, when I didn't had t mood t joke at all, despite me not laughing at all, you tried your best t make me laugh. Thanks guys in our class that concerned and cheered me up like Weirong, Kairns, Daniel, Guodan, Junhao& th rest of you!♥ Thanks Melvin.C♥ for comforting me all th way when you know I cried so hard before seeing all of you in recess, indeed my goodflend uh! Thanks t th guys during recess that cheered me up by making me laugh so much, much appreciated♥.

Thanks Ms Jane♥, for your words, story and encouragement. I know what t do, I'll try my best t stay strong, because you wanted me t. Though not knowing you well as my form teacher, you really made a big impact on all of us. You joked and made everyone laughed so much, bringing laughter into this class. :)

And every single one that comforted me and cheered me up! thanks. :D

Boyf, this is for you.

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out. - quoted from Elizabeth Barrett Browning.

thanks for not leaving me when times are hard.

i love you, 14O41O.

hugs.

i thought you'd always be mine.

2010-04-16T23:43:00.033+08:00

I'm gonna get a haircut soon! But i really don't know if i should or not! :(
I scared i'll regret. haha!

I've not been updating! I guess my blog's gonna rot, yes R-O-T soon. I want t blog everyday, yet i don't have any photos nor urge t blog @ all! wth. Anyway, fyi if you looked @ my posts, i'm wearing th same tee all th time! But N.O! I take photos coincidentally when i wear this top okay! LOL!

nice one t you. :)

& t a eight years friendship person, you know who you are.
i wouldn't forgive so easily this time, not that i'm cold blood or whatever. Is you didn't reflect, so what if i forgive you? won't it happen one more time? if it does, are you gonna pay me back my r/s? will you be sure you wouldn't be like this? no. not a single one can even predict what will fucking happen once more. you said you couldn't face it, yet now you didn't reflect, and you ended up not bother about anymore else, but guys. you've changed, so do i.

& i fucking hate someone. .-. fuck you.
i do anything i want, you better shut th fuck up.
it's fucking none of your business!

I feel so tired after all these shit coming out.
Everything practically sucks 2themax.

babybabybabyoh.

hahah, i luv you.

thanks for being there. (L).

staring out at the rain with a heavy heart

2010-04-04T00:12:00.041+08:00

I didn't had time t update my blog!
Actually i do, its just that blogger died on me! Their photo uploader is taking million of years t be done and i have 200+ photos w all @ least 1MB each. I didn't had th whole world time t wait for th uploader! Facebook's uploader is much faster! (Y)

& I'm down w cough, chest problems& nauseous. :( I'm feeling v sucky right nao, because I've not recovered! I wna recover faster, *not t go t school t see dog faces!* but t go out. :) I miss shopping w my darlings. & sure do, Jun promised t bring me t th movies! I must get well soon. & My ITOUCH (L), Fred Perry. HAHAH. & saying of movie,*grins* (i've not stepped into th cinema for 6months! OMGWTFBBQZXS.)

I MISS J I MISS J I MISS J. LOLOLOLOL. (JUN :D)
I don't miss fuckers out there which has no ball, no life! (Y)
I MISS Y I MISS Y I MISS Y. LOLOLOL! (YVONNE :D)

Practically, I don't know what t post about!
Just nao, Eddie, Aaron, bro& me went t Novena t eat, haha! I felt weak all over, yet I wna go out. I don't wna stuck at home because there's no fresh air! LOL. My body is starting t ache too! I guess my cough wouldn't go away so fast. -'-! Eddie made th joke of th day, he drove so recklessly! He kept going th wrong way, making turns v slowly& everything! He made me laugh til i had no voice anymore. :( but it was truly funny! HAHAH.

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME? :(
MY COUGH IS GETTING WORST DAY BY DAY, OMGWTFBBQZXS.

JUN IS TH BEST OF TH BEST OKAY.
JUN CARES FOR ME, NOT LIKE THOSE BITCHES OUT THERE. HAHA.
JUN GET WORRIED FOR ME, LOVEEE ME. HAHAHA.

i'm tired. i know you wouldn't turn back.

i won't regret letting you go.

cause i know, someone else is out there.

t hold me, love me, shower me with love even if you don't.

you'll regret your actions one day, i wouldn't bother.

heartfelts.

i'm strong enough to mend, you'll be distraught in pain.

2010-03-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

all photos from shaun's mobile. haha!
i luv shaun bestflend's disturbing face, really made my day. haha.

Monday,
School! I only had 1hr 30 mins of sleep, yet i'm alive and kicking. HAHAH. I didn't sleep! I was listening in class, bored 2themax. Changed back t old seating arrangement, i'm surrounded by guys again, wtfish! I want Ines& Aisyah t keep me awake! hahah, but still, I'm being sandwiched between Francis& Matthew. They're nice t disturb too! AHAHHA. :x

Tuesday,
I slept in class! Gosh, I swear I was utterly tired! :( I don't have any idea why either! I had like.. 5 hours of sleep already, yet I still slept in class. Rubbish! Had assembly, got dance! But it's boring 2themax, for sure! Ines & I were like, gosh, so boring! MSN WAS DOWN. -'-!

Wednesday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAOPAAA. :)

After school, headed straight home! Was supposed t meet brother, but he was @ Clementi & i'm lazy t take MRT! :( I took bus instead, while he took train. Duh, of course i reached home first. :x & Guess what! INTERNET IS DOOOOWN. Didn't had a chance t blog nor go facebook& plurk! :(

Headed t Tiong Bahru Plaza t buy dad's birthday and went MR BEAN!! ♥ Went back home & went t Kia Hiang Restaurant! :) Ate th food there, *burps, fucking bloated!* Headed home t cut cake, & sure do, picture are.. in th next post!

Thursday, Today!
I slept in class again, wth! Class was boring 2themax. & I found out something! I can study better when I'm @ Kiefer's sit.haha! But I bet Ms Jane wouldn't let me change, so fuck it. -.- & I found out some bitches and bastard have been complaining behind my back, utter dogs. :) & they can't grow up! Don't talk behind people's back lah moronic humans. :)

&.. TATA.
I'm feeling better and better slowly already.
Thanks Shaun, Junhao! :)

I miss you still.

I remember all our memories, all your texts.

But it was th end, i'll never see you.

i don't wish t forgive and forget either.

your pain memories for me are unbearable.

you're heartless, yet you don't think you are.

i don't know what's in your mind.

i laid down and cried silently on black roses.

2010-03-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

Th rest pf th photos are in Shaun besflend's handphone!
i'll get them tomorrow. :)
My second photo look utter funny, thanks t Shaun! HAHA. (Y)

Thanks Shaun bestflend for coming down though you ought t be doing your homework too! heartfelts♥. He got disturbed by me& yes there's this auntie, I think she's partially insane! She came towards us and talk loads of crap, saying what dig your eyes out when you're sleeping blah3. She's saying about someone, but I've got no idea who th heck is that. We both laughed out ass out, but understood that th woman's partially insane so stopped laughing. *look! we're understanding, LMAO*

Went t Vivo by train, Shaun waited for me outside my house as I get my homework. *i'm going t study okay! HAHAH* He snapshot me, th first 2 photos. LOL. Headed t vivo& met Yvonne♥! We lepaked awhile then Lenz and Joker came, we went off t eat while Shaun left, still, thanks bestflend! :)

Joker keep bullying me luh! He's utter insane, seriously. But after that, he was quite okay i guess. Haha! We ate& I studied. They sent me home& yes, chiong holiday homework! HAHA. I bet many didn't do either. :x

Thanks all those that comforted me.
Let me name out some okay, i don't remember all, don't kill me if i didn't mention yours!
Plurkers♥: Cindy, Grace, Shihui, BabyAiko, Lester, Brian, Suki, Cheryl.F, Huiqing, Tianyu, Don, Cassandra, Sylvia, Camilia, Daven, Rachel. That's all i rmb! :/
Msn♥: Jon, Ahxin, Ines, Cindy, Jonathan, Eddie, Lenz, Cindy, Grace, Ivan, Shaun, Nicholas, Daoxiang, Jasmine, Eugene, Yeeting, Zhengwei, Afi. That's all too!:/
Facebook♥: ALL OF THOSE THAT CHEERED ME UP IN MY FB PAGE. (Y) LOL. *practically i'm lazy t name already!!*

Thanks all, serious. :) I felt better with all your consolings, and i'll move on.
I just need time, & sure do, Alicia dear said so, all guys are th same. (Y)
I'll catch up w all my dears& darls for not being able t meet you guys during those period of time!
♥♥♥, heartfelts.

& Sure do, Aloysius.C, smile! :) No matter what I stand by you, heh. LOL. Brother FTW~ ♥
& Yes, i have a 'handsome' brother. -.- *he told me t put one!!* HAHAH.

i ought t let go, i shouldn't be crying.

i lost gracefully, and i'll never step into a lovegame anymore.

your hurt was extreme, i couldn't change you.

hopefully, you'll change and be better.

you will always be remembered, i promise.

all your broken promises i'll remember them.

learn your mistake, don't ever do it again.

i wouldn't acknowledge you if i really see you, cause you wouldn't either.

we'll just be strangers, like th first time we'll ever meet.

heartfelts, i'll still miss you.

i need time t forgo you, and your hurt, our love.

there wasn't really just th two of us.

2010-03-19T22:50:00.077+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENZ HO WEILUN BRATHER. ♥

you better don't open that packet of cigg, even if you do, @ LEAST KEEP TH BOX LA. SO NICELY DECORATE LOR. LOL!

For th past 48 hours, I only slept for.. 3 hours? LOL. \m/, sleepless nights.

Yesterday,
Went out t Bukit Merah @ 5pm+, Shaun Besflend is utterly insane! HAHA. i told him i wna go cut bob hair, he tell me go cut mullet. -'-! LOL. When th moment I told him I wna cut bob hair he sent this : Nb i really want whack you. No joke i wanna whack you already, no give chance! LOLOLOL. cute sia. In th end also nv cut mullet/ bob hair. LOLOL. Headed t meet mummy. Walked t Redhill MRT & took MRT home, bought manymany food! I almost made myself bloated until puke. .-. Met Ryan& Jonathan downstairs, they jokers. Say what I from good girl become bad girl etc. Went t buy MAC for bro& bro treat me MAC!! ♥ Thanks.

Today,
LENZ HO WEILUN's BIRTHDAY. LOLOLOL.
2nd night w/o proper sleep. Went t Tamp t meet Shaun bestflend first cause Lenz they all still buying food! Then headed t Bedok there. Raining v heavily luh! I was really v v cold, plus th sleepless nights, gosh. I swear I can faint anytime at that moment. But I didn't of course! :D

His friends were there, they all kept disturbing @ first. Jokers FTW uh them. haha! Then headed t mama shops t find my food t satisfy my tummy. Don't have Cornetto sia all th mama shops! -'-! Went over until petrol stations t get my food, really rubbish uh. Everything also don't have one, those mamashops. :( Walked back, it was raining! :( Lenz's friend Gongda& his girlf was there waiting. It was raining v heavily! We waited @ th block downstairs. James think he cute uh, he took th umbrella t shelter himself & walk over t th block, pass us food & walked back w/o fetchign us back. LOLOL. Joker friend.

Xiaoma, Joker they all started t come. Cute luh they all! HAHAH. Jokers FTW sia them! Cut cake time, Lenz face kena bua by Xiaoma. LOLOL. Funny uh they all. Then Xiaoma& Zhikai they all come disturb me @ th BBQ Pit there. haha! Played lightsticks. (Y) FUN OKAY. Not childish, everyone were like playing w it. HAHAH. :D

Headed home soon after that, went Tiong Plaza buy Mr Bean! :D I (L) MR BEAN NAO. Their Soya Milk is utter nice please! HAHAH. Go try it! :)

*th rest of th photos all in FB! :) look @ th last photo! 83 Friend Requests. LOL Joke of th day. NICHOLAS ONG, I PWNEDZXS YOU. LOLOL.

Bernice Dearest dedicated for me! HAHAH.

I'm touched okay. Go her blog read what she wrote, utter funny. \m/

She said my secret out!! HAHAHA.

Luvzxs Bernice Dearest too, she's a funny girl lah.

She's utterly insane during recess everyday, Idk why either.

I think she see me, she'll go high. LOLOL. =x *kidding la!

Aww, she's so sweet t ask me last long w Manfred, LUVZXS.

Last long w Weirong too!

Lastly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENZ HO WEILUN BRATHER ONCE AGAIN. HAHAHA.

Manfredmanfredmanfred.♥♥♥
Everyone's telling me th same thing, yet I'm not listening.

Are we over? Or you just needed time?

Can you just tell me, i'm being so paranoid.

Save me, I don't wna feel this way. ♥

you build me up, and tear me down.

2010-03-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

WAHAHAHA. My new specs on me looks real geek! (Y)

Monday,
Headed t school for tutorial of Maths! Boring 2themax please, thanks god Aisyah, Khai& Ines came. Otherwise class would have me a wholetime boredom t me! :( Met Lenz! HAHAH. That 'brather' of mine. LOLOL. Met his friends, Joker, Xiao Ma& one more guy, i forgot his name! HAHA. Skips skips~ * his friends joker, is a wholetime asshole* HAHA, never ending joke from them. (Y) Made my day. Headed t met Yvonne, skips~ Passed tickets and headed home! HAHAHA, I was having fever before that, I was really v hot, Lenz, Yvonne& Shaun knows. :) my fever subsided when I reached home after awhile. Thanks for being there.

Tuesday,
I woke up @ 3plus in th late afternoon, first time. LOLOL. Met Shaun since he's in Cityhall, its near Tiong! HAHA. Much complains from him before he came, he wanted t whack me. LOL. Guess nao he don't haha! He accompanied me chitchat singsong talkcock until 6pm + haha! He headed back t tamp while I went home. & Stoned, ignored everyone. :) *slept @ 3am again!:( *

Today,

Woke up @ 12noon+, thanks t Shaun Bestflend. .-. He practically sent a text saying he transferred all th photos above ^ t his computer already. Sucka, yet he wasn't @ home! So I waited, after he sent, i went t eat my lunch& washed up. Headed back t KR! HAHA. I went back just t collect a POA File, how nice is that. *NOBODY SEEM T COLLECT THEIRS YET!* haha! Well, nevermind @ least I get things done faster. :x Headed home t put my file& went over t Tiong Plaza t collect my specs. (Y) I LOOK FUCKING GEEK IN MY NEW SPECS PLEASE. LOLOLOL! My brother, is a wholetime sucka! HAHAHA. I asked him t help me get milkybar, he didn't want t& I have t accompany him down t 7-11. .-.

i miss my boyf Manfred~
I know he don't, cause i didn't receive a single text from him!
:/

I wanna go do pedicure tomorrow! *yet i dont feel like talking t anyone in this house*
HOW. :(

i'm still awaiting for your text.

everytime i'd be th first, i want you t be.

hopefully you will.

i miss the old you, heartfelts.

2010-03-14T01:46:00.000+08:00

I'm lack of updates, seriously lack of a lot of updates! :(
Because I can't be bother t update no matter how free nor busy i am recently. :O
Anyway, I'm making things short& sweet, haha!

Today,
Went t take clothes from altar shop& headed down t Tampines. Lenz was being a bitch seriously. LOL. I told him t meet me @ Tamp, he ended up going t vivo instead! *smacks forehead*. Went t T1 t Auntie Anne's(Y) & bought food, headed off t bus interchange. Before that saw Jerwin! HAHA. So long never see her already. She's still as chubbyzxs, heh. *no offence ah dear ! haha !* Pass her tickets& headed off.

Called Lenz, my savior ! LOL ! He guided me all th way& waited for Manfred boyf. *slowpoke never die. LOL. :x* Went t 100plus, lepak ! haha ! Chunhao& Ivan came. Ivan was seriously crazy one! Keep on make war make war, haha! Xiaohui came over, Mandric too. Then.. *lazy elaborate* and i left, thanks Ivan for pei-ing me! haha!

Headed t Great World City meet mummy they all, ate CRYSTAL JADE! :D *be jealous*. HAHA! Met Lenz& his friend, pass tickets& went t walkwalk. :) Went t SASA, mummy bought manymany perfumes! But never buy for me. .-. *nevermind, i already bought mine, new bottle one too!* :)

Headed home and yes, here i am posting for you all! HAHA.
I bet i dont hv anymore readers! :(
I'll try, t update asap. :)

i miss th old you.

things weren't meant t be this way.

wake up, you weren't like this.

heartfelts.

all my life, i pray for someone like you.

2010-02-26T23:54:00.002+08:00

I've not been updating recently !
Gosh, time passes real fast, it's been one week plus.
& yes FYI people that reads my blog, th guy above is my BROTHER, ALOYSIUS. Not my boyf ! .-.
& th small boy, yes, he's my baby brother.

Alright, I'm lazy t elaborate every single details of all days you guys. I've not been updating because I'm having my common tests ! And yes, I'm stressed out. I've been over stressed til Thursday, I had chest inflation pain again ! :( Utter rubbish, hurts 2themax.

I passed my Chinese& maths currently ! happy 2themax ! ♥ Though I didn't study much, i managed t pass. & I LUV JINHUI, REALLY. She basically gave me 2hr 30mins of tuition ! :) w her help ,I passed my maths ! (Y). Hopefully her tutors for Chemistry did help too ! :)

Okay enough of studies ! * though my brain is full of studies still* I'm out w th Birdpark, as shown above. Met boyf, met luvs. Lepaaaak ! hahaha ! :)

Fuck, I know my post isn't getting any more attractive, cause I'm basically worn out by th whole week of common tests ! Mon - Fri, I've slept only 25 hours out of th 120 hours ! Kill me please, I'm utterly worn out. I'll update some other time, promise it's gonna be a exciting post ! :)

I'M MEETING CINDY AIAI/BUIBUI TMRZXS. (L)

Hey people! If I'm not updating my blog, find me t plurk/ facebook/ msn ! :)
For plurk, join plurk t be able t respond t me& see what i've been writing all along.
www.plurk.com/chaneeel
For facebook, obvious lah !
www.facebook.com
search Chanel C Bao Hui.
For msn uh, chat w me only if you have my email la ! hahaha!

misses, truly misses.

yet i dont know, if things are gonna end.

kill me please, it's stressing me out.

i just want you.

2010-02-17T20:01:00.001+08:00

Manfred's girl.
Started on O1O22O1O, OOOOhr.

B~~aby, i miss you so. Really misses, why aren't you replying anymore ? Gone through many ups and downs together, though its only 17 days of relationship til today. Really luv you alot, misses.~~

Jealousy strikes whenever i know something about you and another person. I tried my best, not t be jealous. Cause I ought t trust you. These few days, you're treating me super cold. Idk why either, I just want t love you, and get pampered thats all. Yet things aren't going t way it was supposed t be. We kept quarreling, having conflicts.

I don't wish t quarrel always, I just wanna see you. Yet its always so difficult t meet you, cause of your schedules. Your work, my studies. Everytime we meet, not more than 20 sentence. I tried talking, it's difficult t communicate super long, cause we both don't know what t reply.

You said you need me, do you really need me like you did ? :'( after everything, feelings grew stronger. I'm happy whenever i'm w you, no matter what. Yet everytime when we bade good bye, its just like bading th love good bye. we'd talk utterly normal.

I miss you, yet recently i dont get replies from you always. why ? :'(
baby, really misses, hope you really see this..

i luv you, i'll always do. you promised you won't leave, you cannot break that promise. :/

i yearn for your love once more.

2010-02-17T19:42:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year once again ! :)

Hope you guys enjoyed your new year & collected many ang baos !

First day of CNY,
Went t grandpa house t bai nian, played blackjack, headed t mummy's side grandma house t bai nian ! hahah. Headed back t take thing and went off again. :O Met boyf, luvzxs. passed him his valentine's gift & he pass me th ring above ! luvzxs him 2themax !

Second day of CNY,
Went t Aunt Eileen's house first, headed home for steamboat ! :D relatives came, bro friends came. Boyf didn't come. :( played blackjack, win @ first, lose in middle game & won in th end. HAHAH. basically, i won la okay ! LOL.

Third day of CNY,
Went t grandpa's house t pray. Headed home, waited for boyf t come, end up nv come again. :( Headed t shigong's house, headed home. :O

I really miss my boyf, v v much :'(
Baby, if you see this, contact me caaan. :(

misses, are you leaving ? :(

th past left, future will go.

2010-02-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEEEEEOPLE ! :):)

I may not be updating tomorrow, so yup.
Early Happy Chinese New Year everyone !
Hope teens& children get as many angbaos as possible,
Hope parents don't cry because you're losing money, cause its t make us all happy ! :P

Yesterday,
Had CNY celebration in school. Was super duper hyper ! HAHAHA. Esp when Dickson, Weirong & Junsheng started joking around. Ms Jane, Mr Pek, Mdm Fahizah& Ms Chan joked along too ! HAHAH. Went back t class, Guodan, Weirong, Dickson, Junsheng & others kept fooling around. hahah ! Guodan is utterly sick I tell you !

After school, headed t Bugis. Supposingly, I've t meet Pamela& Amerlynn Laopo, but Pamela had t go after waiting so long. So met Amerlynn only. Hah. We walked Bugis Junction, then headed t street, bought my shorts. Went t find Stefanie & ex boss. Ex boss kept saying he no chance because I tell him I have boyf already ! HAHAH. Headed t Vivo, went Pastamania. Gordon was utterly joke ! He wasn't working yet I supposed, but he served me& keep smirking. LOL.

Walked about, went Daiso, saw Valerie Lazybum there. Hahahah ! Headed t find Lani, thought Yvonne darl would be there too ! But only Lani and her friend. Went t walk, headed t 313 Somerset, walked about too. Got one guy gave me a pink heart balloon ! *first picture. :P * HAHAH. *winks t laopo* hahaha ! Headed t Cine, i was like A.S.A.A luh ! *Attention Seeker Attracting Attention if you dunno. LOL*

Then went t Heeren, bought top. I luv Flesh IMP's people ! HAHAH, jokers luh ! (L) . Headed home by MRT, got squeezed 2themax ! :(

I luv my Amerlynn Laopo ! HAHAHA. She's like laughing whenever I joke. Luv her 2themax ! Meetup again okayzxs ! hahahah !
* I WAS WEARING UNIFORM GOING EVERYWHERE ! LOL !

Today,
Went t Tiong Plaza w mummy t buy thing, bought my cosmeticzxs. Headed home & went over t grandpa's house for reunion dinner. hahah ! :D

Misses boyffff.
So long nv meet him alreadyzxs. :B

yet th love's getting stronger each time.

i'll cherish every moment, even if it's gonna be a short r/s or long.

i luv you like always.

never knew what will happen next, i'm cherishing.

2010-02-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

my hand burnt by th 200 degree oven. :O

erviyana& aisyah !

wayne ! hahaha !

th scarf we were supposed t wear. :P

th tourist telling us about th Sikhism praying.

Dickson ! LOL.

aisyaaaah & me. :)

our group photo ! :D

in th church !

nuh being disturbed by th tourist ! hahaha.

shaifudin& me for th costume taking !

mask coloring contest. :P *uncle thumbs up ! LOL our group.

Today was utterly fun !
Thanks t my group people, those that had been there all th time w me ! :)
* please stop looking @ my unglam photos ! LOL !

I didn't study th whole day today ! Not no school, is i couldn't concentrate. :( After school, headed t eat w Bernice Dearest & Abigail Baobei. Abigail left first, as she has tutorial while we had learning journey. Bernice & I went t assemble downstairs w th rest. Sat w Aisyah @ first. Aisyah, Shaifudin & Erviyana kept talking malay w me ! hahaha !

Went in bus, th MR Singh ah, make us all don't like him only. LOL. :B * he owes me a drink yet haven't return it ! LOL ! * Th other tourist, Angie, I like her ! (inserts heart). She's nice ! :) Headed over t various temples t see & did some work tgt. I luv my group 2themax ! hahaah. Joey& Zihui kept migrating t other groups. .-. Neverminddd ! Hahaha.

I like shaifudin when he started crapping around, real hilarious ! Made us all laugh, esp @ th last stop. We were supposed t take pictures w @ least 2 senior citizens, SHAIFUDIN WENT , UNCLE THUMBS UP ! LOL ! * you should hear him from real life, i bet you'll laugh out louuuud ! *

Boyf is in chaleeet. :(
Misses !

i'm afraid, really afraid. :(

i don't wish t count onto th day yet again.

2010-02-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

Saturday,
Out w Pamela boyfie ! :) Met her & ate MAC ! Headed t FEP after that. She abit insane one I tell you. I say what she also laugh, not funny also laugh. I think she's utterly insane. LOL. Walked around, ended up she bought everything she need you know ! yet i didn't buy a single top nor bottoms nor heels nor flats ! wtfuckkkk.

Walked t Heeren, looked @ th clothes, wanted t buy a punkstar's top (baby wore it on sat ! ) in th end didn't buy ! hahaha ! Headed t 313 t walkwalk ! Went on t Wisma & went back t FEP. Finally, bought 4 slogan looking tee, 1 half covered jumper. & i'm on facebook, photobucket & etc @ ImSocial !

Bought Pepsi from a stall in FEP & cabbed down t Tampines. & I swear that PEPSI is either expired or contaminated. .-. Pamela & I had a bad tummy ache after drinking that PEPSI ! :( It doesn't even hv a expiry date, wtfuck ! Went t 100 + slack, sent Pamela off and went w baby& flends.

Baby sent me home ! * Not forgetting Ming Kwang & Chun Hao. Thanks ! luvzxs. Slacked w them @ house downstairs, hao& mk really was hilarious downstairs ! Made me laugh & get fedup @ th same time. They went up, i washed up & sent them t take cab. & t my horror, there's no cab ! wtfuck ! First time ever there's no cab. :(

Sorry chunhao, mingkwang& baby ! :( I felt utterly bad cause i told them there will be, but ending up there wasn't any on that day ! :(

Sunday,
Baby's text woke me up ! :O Text w him til i washup ! :) Auntie& Uncle all came over for mahjong session. @ evening, went t tiong plaza w mummy t buy my candy& buy my new year shorts. I feel so weird, i'm not th skinniest girl yet i can't fit into th smallest size shorts ! :( th person sowed it for me & i tried, so bought it. she sowed like 2inch ? .-.

Had dinner w Mummy's side family. :B Utterly boring, but got baby t keep me entertained ! Same goes for Pamela ! :)

my next post probably during a weekday, promise ! :)

I really really hope baby would change off his bad habits.
I hate it,i don't wish t see him harming himself.
Same goes for qa, ch, ivan.
I'm not even nagging for th sake of nagging, really meant for your good.
hopefully they won't anymore. :(

loving you isn't tough, missing you is tough.

i've yet t know when will i ever get t see you evertyime.

i've yet t know when you'll leave me.

i don't wanna know, yet these question kept bothering me.

if you could tell my voice is just a lie.

2010-02-05T23:14:00.000+08:00

I've not been updating lately, & yes, I feel bad.
Yet I can't do anything about it ! :(
I'm cropped up w ~~studies, studies studies& test test tests~~ ! :(

Nonetheless, I'm still here t update for you guys ! :)
& I bet Dearest is reading this ! :P

& Yup, don't ask further. I'm attached.
Attached t Manfred Ngoh, O1O22O1O, OOOO hr.
*cute right ! LOL I know :P *
Be jealous, cause I've got a good boyf, a understanding one ! :)
But i'm easily jealous, cannot blame one, hahaha !
& yes again, all th guys aren't contacting me anymore, because i'm having a boyf.
* like nice only lah guys ! *

Apologies for saying i'll update yet I didn't. :(
Still, read my blog ! :) I'll still update, promise okay ? * Chanel ain't a promise breaker !*

Monday,
Attached, nothing much. studied all th way ! :( Super stress w school, many tests coming up.

Tuesday,
Assembly in th afternoon, totally bore me out ! It's th talks of NYAA, National Youth Achievement Awards (?) Guess so. I copied almost everything okay ! I'm such a good girl. LOL ! Too bad, I did it out of boredom ! :P Had Mr Ngoh's safety talk. * EH NOT MY BOYF HOR, DONT ANYHOW BOMB. LOL* Stayed back, ended up heading home cause nobody brought materials for class decorations.

Wednesday,
Schhooooool ! :) Ended school& dad came over t fetch me t Vivo. Changed shoes& headed home. Headed off t meet baby first ! :) After which, slacked& went t eat first. Ivan, Baby& me were late for th dinner. & Ivan quite tandelai one ley ! hahah. *no fancy taken uh, flend flend hor. :) * Hmm, some unpleasant things happened. Made me utterly regretted going (?) Chatted w Amerlynn Laopo on phone & yup, baby sent me home ! :) luvzxs. Thanks Ivan & Brandon too. & Ming Kwang for your 'show'. LOL.

Thursday,
School & off for home immediately, was being ordered t go home immediately ! :O Went off t meet mummy. Then went t buy my assessment books *Chanel is a good girl. :B:B* Did Maths tuition homework & off t bed. My boyf made me utterly worried w his words in his text.

Friday,
Hands On day ! :) No studies, just workshop. I can say it was utterly boring @ first. Cause I was sitting @ th back, not mixing w my classmates. Didn't want t though. Slowly I talked w some & in th end, we ended up shouting & laughing so hilariously. Esp Guodan that made my day ! hah. W his whatever service. hahaha ! not gonna say out, least you guys steal our ideas ! :P Kidding.

I'll be going toooown w my boyfie tmr & meeting my boyf later on ! YAY-NESS. LUVZXS, HAPPY HAPPY !
Boyf's hp no money again. :( Faster change t line one ! Really wna text you luh baby !

& I almost cried today. :(
Cause someone looked @ me in enterpreneurship workshop, smiled & nodded head, while i just turned away. Least I cry, feeling so suck. Kairns would know who. :)

Byeeeeezxs.

boooyf ! :)

I hate th feeling of being jealous.

I dislike th fact that she's always there.

ridiculously extra.

yet i still luv you a million. :)

2010-01-28T15:42:00.003+08:00

I'll be updating either tonight or tmr night !
Stay tune, belikealways.

* I've just notice, I only post 7 times this motnh ! Gosh.
I'll be posting more often if i can alrightzxs :D

your imperfection weren't seen.

2010-01-24T12:52:00.000+08:00

Hello readers ! :)
Sorry for th lack of update, cause I've really got no time t spare for blogger ! :(
Actually, i had a video for you guys.
But I just can't upload it ! *heeeeeeelp !!*

Friday,
I had tuition after school ! hahah. I luv my tuition teacher okay, really ! She's a nice girl. Grades 5/5. But that she gives me a lot of homework. :( Quarreled w Ryan& Brian. .-. & Ben is typically funny ! :P

Saturday !
Went t th doctor's, supposingly i'm going for injection, yet th doctor said it's not necessary ! Instead, I was given medicines. :B * & i approximately hv 7 medicines now. .-.* Headed home, went out t Jurong Point ! Send my phone for repair. Might change a new phone ! *hopefully mummy buys for me :x*

Walked about, Went t John Little, bought *ahem*& cosmetics , headed t MACdonalds ! :D:D *dad has strong objection going, but Sky wants t go too ! :P* Ate& went t Kiddy Palace. Bought Sky's toys & headed off t G2000 ! Dad bought his new year clothes there& I helped him choose. * my sense of tatse ain't bad okayzxs ! HAHAH*

In th end, I bought 2 tops. hahah ! Not from G2000 of course ! Saw Jason *Jesmond's fleeeend* :O Headed homeee ! Packed everything & I tried uploading th video, couldn't work ! HEEEEELP :(

& I LUVZXS MY AIAI, & BABY ! :P

*i'm still single, sucker. :B*
& SINGLE FTW !

Bye readers !

i saw you, you didn't.

i dont even bother t say hi.

i'm not heartless, i just don't wna make myself ugly.

for walking and saying hi t someone who doesnt.

you're useless, worthless.

2010-01-22T15:35:00.000+08:00

Tuition in 30 mins time ! :) will update later on.

Special post for th Anonymous ! :)
If you don't know, there's this Anonymous that commented on one of my posts saying :
Why you always wear th same clothes for each post ? Don't you have clothes t wear ? Anyway, you look fugly and hideous.
& Sure do, I've rejected that comment.

Well well, anonymous. Must you really know why ? Does it really concerns you ? I bet no my dear. :) & furthermore, what I wear, why do you even bother. Lol, I have my likes and dislikes for every top, do you have t care ? It's not as if I wear it everyday& don't wash it. You're trying t sound as if you're saying i'm filthy and no clothes t wear yeah ? You didn't say so, but you sound like it. :) & Look carefully, its not every post th same & its different dates. -.- Don't presume that you're right, cause I never wear th same clothes over and over again. It depends on th place& who I go out w. -.- I look fugly and hideous ? heee. I bet you look much hideous than i am ! :) Otherwise you'd be tagging w your blog url or Blog ID. :) I fugly ah ? I bet you're not any better from me. :) & I bet you're just pure jealous for goodness sake -.- Only ppl that are jealous will start t say th other party ugly. :) I don't need you t read my bloggg ! hahaha ! Or, why should you even read& look at my photos when you don't like me ? LOL! Utter rubbish of you.

I hate such people, why do they even bother t comment& try t discriminate others when they should reflect on themselves, isn't it ? only nice people are th best ! :)

i wouldn't hurt her, if i were you.

2010-01-20T21:39:00.001+08:00

Aloha readers ! :)

I've gotten eye infection again. :(
Might not be attending school if condition gets worse or still stays this bad tmr.

Pray that I get well okay ? :D
Anyway, I think I love my class, super disturbing one :P
* just that i don't interact much w th girls. :/ *
But nevermind, 2 years together, cannot don't talk, sure die one. .-.

Bye readers.
I'll update prolly tomorrow or other days bah. :D
* thanks parentszxs for bringing em t th doctor's. hah.

Pictures ah ? DONT HAVE. :P
Next post bah. :D

where's that thoughtful you ?

why you've become such a nuisance t others ?

its been 100 days, ever since w brokeup.

& nothing changes, and nothing will.

hopefully, you'll last w her.

beautiful sound, its a song for you.

2010-01-19T17:49:00.000+08:00

Hello readers ! :)
Currently I'm @ Pastamania, just finished studying. :)
* & NO PASTAMANIA DOESN'T HAVE FREE COMPUTER FOR YOU T USE ! HAHAHA.
I'm using's Nelson's lappy ! :)

-edit-

Saturday,
Went out w YVONNE & LEILANI. :D:D My two darls, heh. Headed t Town t collect my membership @ Paragon first. Headed t Mark& Spancer t buy Yvonne's cookies. Bused t Vivocity, 143. Talked alot. hahaha ! & Lani bought th Aloe Vera Lemon Honey drink near Heeren, its nice ! hahaha.

@ Vivo, we headed t th washroom& head t Pastamania. Ate & Laughed alot ! Lani was th joke there, but not revealing ! hhaha ! Headed t washroom & canwhored. *EH NOT ME THIS TIME. AHAHAH ! It was Yvonne that cam-whored w my camera ! hahaha*

Headed t walkwalk, then went t Mini Toons, Yvonne bought her stuffs. Slacked, they played pool& headed home :)

Monday,
After school, went straight t Pastamania t eat& study, super fun lah ! Ate& studied, use Nelson's lappy :B Nelson sent me home after thaaat. & yup, I'll be going less of PASTAMANIA. hahah ! :)

& Thanks Gary for being there.

Tuesday *todayzxs.
3 words, BORING BORING BORING. .-.

It's utterly boring ! Bused t school w C, assembly & went t class. Bored 2themax ! :( Had POA test, hopefully i pass ! :'( recess& class again. Disturbed Shawn& Dickson ! hahaha. * I luv Dickson's watch, like BEN 10's watch. LOL ! * just trying t find entertainment lah* Had house meeting & dismissed ! :)

Bus-ed back alone & went t popular& 7 eleven alone ! * SEE, CHANEL CAN BE INDEPENDENT ONE OKAYZXS. hahaha ! :)

I'll update pretty soon !
Bye readers !
* I'M IN NEED OF A JOOOOB. :'(

Thanks Louis, Manfred, Panda, Maurice, Gary, Zack, Jonathan& many more for being there for meee ! :)
Luv you people !

you made me afraid t love.

least getting hurt once more like how you did.

for being so heartless& cruel.

totally inhuman you.

i don't know where t start or stop.

2010-01-15T21:38:00.005+08:00

Hello readers ! :)
Bear w my photos, cause this is like.. AFTER SCHOOL PHOTOS ! :(
& Be jealous I've gotten that ring. :)
& Fuck you if you say my finger's big. .-.
Cause its th 3rd smallest size, SIZE 7 ONLY OKAYZXS. If you can beat that then say my hands are big. :>

Mondaaay,
Went t school. During RE period (Reading) in th hall, Daniel& I were being called out. Daniel was th vice-chairperson while i'm th Chairperson. .-. Ms Jane chose us you know ! :( Complaaained, & I got vice chair in th end, since Daniel was such a easy going person. *& yes, well I'M NOT ! :) For these type of things. heh*
* i dont rmb th rest le lah ! gosh. *

Tuesday,
ABSENT FROM SCHOOL. I had stomach flu, BUNNY DID NOT PON SCHOOL. KEEP THAT THOUGHT OUT OF YOUR MIND OKAY. LOL. I had a very very bad stomach flu on Tuesday. Met Ryan korkor awhile& headed t th doctor's. Found out I'm having stomach flu. :'( & Mummy complaint about me eating 2 eggs always. Doctor told Mummy, her son eats 4 eggs a day ! HAHAHA. I don't out-beat her son man ! I'll puke de luh. & Th IPHONE plan, doctor said it was cheap ! *cause she's using it. LOL*

Wednesday,
Absent again, No worries for me, cause I've gotten 2 days MC from doctor as I'm afraid my stomach flu gets worst. :) & I had super bad stomach flu as usual. Totally no appetite please. :( Evening met Yvonne. Went t get leggings& ate MOS Burger, I swear I'll never eat their hotdogs anymore. :( MUSTARD GAOGAO ONE SIA. Headed t play th catching machine, caught a winnie th pooh & Yvonne got a Scrump. SUPER FUNNY LUH :P

Thursday,
Went back t school. Met Candice, Junshen, Wengho, Jeslyn ! My tummy hurts 2themax still. Was late for school. :( & Headed straight back t class, Daniel they all shock that I stepped in lah. LOL. After school, met Ryan korkor. My stomach flu was back again & it hurts big time. Ryan korkor even said that my face was real pale. D:

Fridaaaay *today lah* ,
Went t school w a weak stomach D: Headed t school w Jeslyn. Met up w Wengho, Candice, Junshen& Lynette. O: Never really talked much, cause i've been drinking my miloooo. :P In class, boring si woooo. IS SIAN ONE LUH. DURING RECESS, SHUNING AH, CUTE ONE, I think she whacked my ass or back. LOL. KIDDING *i know you're reading thats why ! luv. HAH. BUT SOMETHING HILARIOUS HAPPENED.

We were sitting in 3s, Regin moved behind while Danish came forward. *Danish was sitting in th middle*
Dickson went t disturb Jonathan (both are like rivals, Dickson @ th right& Joanthan @ th left)
*Dickson takes Daniel water bottel & spray a little on Jonathan.
Jonathan shouted : EH FUCK YOU LA.
Dickson : (sprays more til a handful of water came otu form th NIKE water bottle) eh what fuck you huh, what fuck you, what fuck you.
Jonathan : EH STOP IT LA. NB..
Dickson : HAHAHA.
&& DANISH DID NOT HELP, INSTEAD HE WENT L-O-L CAN !
* i did too. LOL.

*how silly can both of them be ? hah !*

& I fucking hate one girl, Abigail they all know is who.
Like a ZZZ only la. Want attitude also dont come attitude us luh, WE DON'T OWE YOU A LIVING DOG.
& After reading this, don't be like a idiot kp-ing t your best friend or even t your computer about me. No point lah, you're trying t make yourself seem more like a idiot only. Gosh.

& there's this person, fucking worthless. LOL
Need a girl t plead for him.

Useless person, how useless can he be !

Bye readers, I'll update prolly tmr or sunday ! :)
ME LUVZXS YOU ALL. EXCEPT FOR SOME WORTHLESS ASS. LOL.

some memories weren't meant t be kept this way.

you were meant t be removed from my heart.

& i no longer luv you so much, cause you're nothing.

& not that loving anymore, you've changed, so do i.

listen to your heart, when its calling for you

2010-01-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

Hello readers !
Apologises a million for not updating for a week ! :(
Sorry alright. :) *my apology should be accepted since I spammed photos for you guys ! *

Monday, hmm, Idk how t phrase it leh..
*i'm just giving an excuse cause idk what t type, omg ! I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT MONDAYZXS*
Okay nevermind, Monday is th previous post, stupid me. .-.

Tuesday - Friday, Practically ~~school school school , homework homework homework~~. :(
* I Only state those days I'm out lah okay.

Thursday, I metup w Maurice ! HAHAH.
*Pst, he was th first guy this year seeing me in uniform, please be honoured sucker. HAHAHA.
Met him @ Tiong's MAC, as usual, I'm late. Headed t take money, then bought MAC. Headed t my house. He played dota all th way, pure sucker isn't he ? HAHAHA. I ate MAC & went t do homework.

I couldn't concentrate on my homework when this asshole kept shouting tgt w his friends you know. SUCKERS. LOL. I only rmb Kerwin, Yihong & Darren. I THINK THATS THEIR NAMES, I DON'T KNOW OKAY. LOL. They all keep disturbing lah. Maurice transferred his hard disk's songs t me while I disturbed Kerwin.

Kerwin is a loseeer. :x * just kidding* I disturbed him acting as a guy cause his display picture was a girl. In th end, he fall for it& keep asking who am i. Same goes for Yihong & Darren. Kept asking who i am & tracked me down. hahha ! Disturbing.
Maurice headed home around 7pm bah. So I headed w my homework ! :)

Friday,
Rushed home, met Ryan korkor ! Met him @ Tiong's MAC too & Yup I'm late. heh. Ryan korkor made 2 new friends there. * thanks t me because i'm late* HAHAHA. Crapped w Ryan Korkor& headed in t eat. Ryan korkor's nuerh, Pamela called & asked korkor t go his school.

So we both went after eating, she cabbed us down. hah. Ryan korkor waited for Mindy t come over. So we used Pamela's lappy first, & Ryan korkor is making a fool out of himself ! hahaha. SUPER HILARIOUS. :x So we headed t slack first. After that went back t Tiong.

They came over my house. :B Slacked & went homeeee. O: Had conflicts, & Ryan korkor was real scaryzxs. D:

Saturday,
Had housewarming, Met Regin in th morning, she wanted t pass me her spare phone, in th end she left w it. LOL. :x So met Yvonne daaaaaaaaaaarl ! :D:D luv her 2themax. Met @ Outram Park & SHE WAS LATE I WASN'T. HEHEH. *okay random* LOL.

So headed t Clarke Quay, ate her laksa& my mee pok drrrryzxs. Headed t buy her bag ! As shown above th super large bag that she can throw me inside ! HAHAHA. Went t buy Sticky Candy ! :D:D I luv th hearts one, omggggg super nice. *thanks Yvonne daaaarl for intro-ing me that sweet. heh.*

Headed t my house, Ryan korkor, Zack came over. After that we slacked & Yvonne darl left, we went t fetch Jonathan over & Zack left, Went t take my spare phone from Regin & headed t fetch Xinyi here. Headed t my houseee !

&amp; I'm lazy t elaborate. HAHAHA. :P

Sunday, CUUUUUI.
I think I saw xiaoace @ AMK ? .-. idk. LOL. Headed t buy stuffs w mummy & went grandpa house t eat, same food againzxs. Headed home & rushed my homework !

Today..
Practically only school. :D

OKAYZXS, I'm super unhappy about this particular person. .-.
I think after reading it, I think you know who th fuck you are.
Money isn't everything. Don't use money t buy friends okay.
What LV, what Fred Perry. HA HA. What a joke.
Just t make friends w me, you're telling me getting Fred Perry & LV ?
Don't joke, seriously.
Yeahs read this and you'll fucking hate me, so be it.
I don't wna make friends w a guy that uses money t buy friends.
You want me not t hate you ? Can. Stop having that fucking bad habit.

I'm sure many people would make friends w you if your habit goes off.

& SPECIALZXS.
PANDAAAAA. LOL.
Stupid silly boy.
Featuring you raaaah.
Thanks for accompanying me text.
luvs. :)

scary thoughts of you flashback, yet again.

you're a lsoer, that was never once worth my love.

yet i'm so in love w you, making myself not daring t love.

i hate you, why did you even exist.

inside the glaze that stares back at me.

2010-01-04T19:56:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! :D:D

Overdue photos.
*only uploading 3/4 of all photos, as its super slow. :(

HELLO READERS !
May Bunny wish you a HAPPY NEW YEAR ! :D:D
Okay, I'm super sorry for not updating on new year, cause my photos are uploading v slowly& it'll take me days t upload finish ! :(
& I'm only giving a brief update, cause I'm not feeling well.

On New Year Eve, family& friends headed t Riverside there t celebrate ! :) Bro& me drank red wine @ first, then drank Vodka. Bro friends all called beer& mostly all drunk ! :x *heyhey, I WASN'T DRUNK HORHORHOR. HAHAHAH !* I SWEAR, THERE WAS FUCKING HOT ! SWEAT TIL LIKE DONT KNOW WHAT LUH. D:

In th end headed home, bro's friends all go eat& drink first. Nelson came over ! hahaha. He& my family played mahjong til someone took over him. :x He stayed til 5am & left, while I headed t sleep @ 6am.

O1/O1/2O1O,
I went out w Cindy buibui, not gonna elaborate much. :)
we meet, i was late for 1hr. :x headed t Tiong Plaza t buy her screen protector. Headed t Vivo, went t Pastamania. Ate & left for home. :)

O2/O1/2O1O,
Basically ley.. Like you guessed ! I stoned @ home th whole day. Super sianzxs, tried doing my homework, but my maid went t off th mainpoint switch while i'm 3/4 done. & I DID NOT SAVE, *WTFUCK!* Had t redo, didn't had th mood t. So headed t bed @ 4am plus. :D

O3/O1/2O1O,
Woke up suepr early, had Wedding Lunch. Dad's cousin's wedding lunch, Li Pin & Raymond. *heh, i still rmb hor ! I'm not STM ! :x * Only 2 words t describe th whole 8+1 dishes, FUCKING CHEAPSKATE. But still, I saw a shuai ge there okayzxs ! HAHAHA. *ahlah, i don't ask for number so too bad*

Rushed my homework while family are playing mahjong, managed t finish @ 11pm. Tried sleeping, totally cannot sleep you know ! :( *i made Nelson chat w me till 3am plus* Hung up, tried sleeping& managed t sleep ! :)

O4/O1/2O1O
& I had t wake up @ 5am. :( Super cui please. I only had 2 hours of sleep. Nevermind, headed t school, heavy rain pour. Was drenched totally, cleaned myself *thanks that guy that offered me tissue* :) Took MRT, walked t bus interchange. Waited for C t come, took 282 t school ! :)

School was alright bah, didn't talk w much people. During recess, was w Regin @ first, then headed t find C. :) Can say that, both of us totally got no mood for school. Headed back, changed sitting arrangement. & I'm sitting in between Daniel& Francis ! Regin is in front of me. :O

Had attired check, BUNNY PASSED OKAYZXS. HAHAHAHA. Super proud lah. :x Headed t AVA Room w Bernice. She accompanied me t buy waffle& headed t MRT Station, we sat there, not taking any train, crapping around. hahah ! In th end, I left when th 3rd train came.

Currently, I'm having headache & my eyes will close anytime.
Feel so much like fainting.

Hopefully tmr I wont feel this way. :(

Alright, some of th idiots are waiting for my New Year Resolution.
Here goes ;
1. Get over Victor, get a better guy than him in future. ( get someone, that really loves me, not someone that plays me )
2. Be a good girl& no more nonsense from me. ( don't wanna get into taiji and stuffs anymore )
3. Get good grades for my results ( Ms Jane set A1, i'll try my best t achieve it. )
4. Start earning money. ( For my god damn braces )
5. LUV MY NEW BOYF WHOLEHEARTEDLY ( If i ever get one, hahha ! )

I shall end here, heh.
Cause below is dedications& yup, wishing you all once again. :)

²¹~XiiaoAce

Cheerup ! Everything that happened is a past now okay ?

Love today, not yesterday. Understaaand ? :)
I know you fucking hate me lah, cause i v ugly looking, LOL.
*bunny doesn't care ugly or pretty or cute or whatever lah okay*
Just smile always, & I know you can get over it.
I'll just hope she will accept you someday okay ? :>
You have t be cheerful, isn't it ? *ghost flend*
HAHAHA ! :)
*you can don't read, or be a lazy one. i dont mind.*

BUNNY.C WISHES YOU, HAPPY NEW YEAR !

i don't know what you know about.

i don't wanna know either.

i only know, i don't want t see you anymore.

a loser is never worth my love.

unless from th start you were a good guy.

2009-12-31T21:13:00.002+08:00

~~he asked whether i want him t go.~~
~~i said yes.~~
~~he said he'd come.~~
~~he brought false hope t me.~~
~~making me wait for him t arrive.~~
~~in th end not replying my text & calls.~~
~~i spammed calls, he said he'd t work.~~
~~not coming.~~
~~fuck you.~~
~~you said you'd come, in th end you didn't say anything.~~

but you came in the end. :)

you could have let me know, so now i'm all alone.

2009-12-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

CAUTION, SUPER WORDY POST ! :B
*FULL DETAIL OF TODAY'S EVENT, HEE.*

Hello readers ! :D:D
I'm utterly fed-up today. :(

Morning woke up, saw Grace Bunnystar's text, i chua tio can ! :( She started say her mum started nagging, she's afraid she can't go out. So I told her I bring her go report. hahaha ! In th end, we managed t meet, & as expected, I'm late. :B *i was never once early lah, so it doesn't matter rightright ? HAHAHA !*

I forgot t bring my camera, headed home t take. & yes, I forgot t charge it. How silly can i be, hahhaha ! Thank god I had a extra battery, otherwise i'll cry for sure ! :( Headed t Tiong Bahru Plaza's MAC ! Ate MAC, headed home t change my top. hahaha !

Took like 20mins t change cause idk what t wear ! :( Headed t bus stop, took bus t Orchard ! HAHAH. Nicklaus' phone couldn't get through @ first, wanted t go Vivo alreadddy. In th end he called, so we met him @ Heeren.

He was still @ Lavender, so we went t MAC t slack. hahah ! Cam-whore& gossiped about th people around ! Super hilarious lah ! Nicklaus suddenly called& told us t go up when he's supposed t come find us. So nevermind, headed up t find him. *we waited a hour plus you know !*

He was like fucking fierce please. & he just insulted me directly in my face, like wtf ? .-. *say i small size nevermind ley, scold me short even.* Nevermind, Grace chilled me down. So we started saying funny stuffs&Grace super cute I tell you ! Walked t Cine t see my Fred Perry. Nicklaus kept saying we walk v slow, but that's my normal speed ! *he should accommodate w me if he's meeting me, isn't it ?*

Went up, Grace& I sat down while Nicklaus& his friends keep walking about, I showed him th thing i wanted, he kept saying nice meeeh. I asked Grace, she said it was nice luh ! :( In th end didn't buy, cause he didn't bring moneeeeyzxs. *& he scolded me stupid like 3 times* .-.

They headed t play pool, Grace& I don't play pool ! So I told Nicklaus i wanted t go Vivo t find Nelson& Gordon riaaaao. He like keep quarreling w me. Making me super duper pissed. :( Tolerated& he kept trying t shoot me, like wtf ? In th end Grace& I left, w me being super duper angry.

Keep complaining t Grace. I told Grace more than 20 times I'm pissed w Nicklaus. She kept counting ! HAHAH. I just luv my bunnystar most ! :) So we these two road-idiots, yup lost again. In th end I found th bus-stop t go t Vivo ! :)

Headed t Pastamania straight away ! :B Saw Gordon, he didn't see me @ first okayzxs ! :( Called Nelson, he was @ th washroom. Wait for them t come back. We went t order. Nelson took our orders, he complained a lot luh ! HAHAHA. :B

Gordon served us, Jass too (?) Think so. heh. Th Banana Dessert Pizza's banana was like rotten or maybe overcooked too much ? It was super duper bitteeeeeeeeeer ! I swear it really was ! :( I ate til th last piece, I felt like vomiting so much. Thank god Nelson came over. I told Nelson, he called his manager here.

His manager asked : why you wait until last piece then come complain ?
I replied : Because no service crew passed-by me, and all were so busy !
His manager turned t Nelson & said : HOR, you heard it ah !
His manager turned t me& said : We'll make one more for you, no worries.
* I wanted t reject, but he was too busy t care about me*

In th end, they brought another come, it tastes better than th previous one. & th manager nagged @ Nelson t go work ! HAHAHA. Grace took 1, I took 2& leaving one last piece there. I felt super duper full& bloated ! :( Couldn't finish. His manager said : must finish ah, we make a better one for you already. *jokeful manner*

So I lent a pen from Gordon, wrote on th tissue paper :

to manager& Nelson :
我吃不下了! :(
thanks for your services anyway. :)
*thumbs up*
Thanks Gordon for th pen ! :)

HAHAHAH. I passed th pen back t Gordon& requested their manager t clear my table t let him see th note. :B Nelson said I was troublesome you know ! HAHAHA. Bullyyyy me raaah. Trained home w Grace. :D

* I just luv my bunnystar 2themax ! She never fail t make me laugh& chill me down no matter what. hahaha ! Luv you bunnystar ! *

Bye readers !

you're cruel like torn roses.

pricking through me making me bleed.

yet i kept quiet over and over again.

letting myself get hurt.

caught in a bad romance.

2009-12-26T23:10:00.002+08:00

Hello readers ! :)
I went t Plurk& hello readers when i'm supposed t say hello plurkers. HAHAHA.
Insane meeee.

Woke up @ 10am today, called Nelson. He woke up& i hung up, lie on bed til 11am. Headed t wash up& used computer. Met him @ my house downstairs, & i forgotten t bring my hoodie. .-. Headed back t take, heard my baby bro crying ! hahaha. He wanted t go out w me, * like miracles please* HAHAHAH. In th end I left him there crying. i'm not heartless hor ! Nelson waiting v long cannot let him wait le luh. D:

Headed t Tiong Plaza, went t Nail Palace t do my nails, met Cerene t pass her stocks. Went t MACdonalds t eat. :D Nelson& i were talking about our secondary lives, mentioned a lot of people ! *hahahah. Of course we do bitch around, which human doesn't ?* hahaha ! But yup, didn't really mention names, just telling about our lives in secondary school :)

Took MRT t Vivo City ! Hahahah. BEFORE THAT, SUPER HILARIOUS. There's this group of guys that were tapping out& we walked passed them. Th first guy in grey shirt turned t his friends and shouted : WOAH, YUAN LAI TIONG BAHRU YOU NU HAI ZI DE LEH ! *woahs, tiong bahru actually has girls one leh !* I told Nelson& he laughed. LOL. Its like as if th guy hasn't seen a girl in his entire life ! HAHAHA. Joke of th day, seriously.

I told Nelson about th 'bicycle' guy in th MRT when i was w Maurice few days back. HAHAHA. *only maurice, nelson& i know !* Of course I won't disclose it, cause you guys wouldn't laugh if i say unless i tell you face t face. hahaha !

Went t Action City& Mini Toons, & before that Nelson forced me t go in National Geographic ! AHAHAH. I didn't went in, & yes he failed t drag me in. hahahah ! *tongues-out* HAHAHAH. Headed w Skypark& slacked, it was raining cats& dogs. We sat in th shelter& something real hilarious happened t me& Nelson ! HAHAHA. About th rooftop thingy Nelson ! HAHAHAH.

Chit-chat& NO, never bitch around. HAHAHA. We only said about some copying stuffs, so hilarious& childish. hahaha ! We were laughing a lot about that topic. So funny please ! HAHA. Nelson said people are jealous of us if they copy us. HAHAHA. & Treat them like our fans.

& sure do, people will start cursing & scolding us. Who cares, HAHAHAH. Nelson's gonna change me now ! HAHAHA, he's gonna be real strict w me. D: *nevermind, his glass heart will melt one* HAHHAH.

Nelson headed t work after that, I sat @ his workplace& watch him work t kill time. hahaha ! Th workers there are real hilarious. Yvonne darl, Leilani & yvonne's gan daddy came t Pastamania ! Luvs. hahaha ! They were super hilarious there, making people all go L-O-L. Super cute lah !

They left, & after awhile, chat w Grace Bunnystar, left too. :) Trained home, saw Nigel. AHHAH. He was going t BBDC. :)

& Yes, Nicklaus again.
RAAAAH, I dont know why t say.
I just want th Fred Perry & LV lah.
But I'm like crapping so much here. ahahah !
Cause i know he won't buy. HHAHHAHA. *evil grins*

bye readers !

you're cruel, to make things go th way you wanted.

& using ways t hurt others, even th closest will get hurt.

why did you change, it doesn't benefit you.

wake up my dear.

i gave it to someone special instead.

2009-12-25T11:49:00.036+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY !

Hope you enjoyed your countdown& your day !

Hello readers ! :)

MERRY XMAS ALL .

& wna know how i celebrated christmas eve ? :) * its a super paiseeeeeh day. :B *

Woke up @ 11am, lie on bed til 1pm then washed up. Went t meet mummy @ Tiong Plaza, went t Nail Palace. Headed t Kopitiam& eat Korean food. SUCKS 2THEMAXXXX. :( It's not spicy @ all, cheat my feeeelingzxs.

Headed home t wash up once more& meet Maurice ! & yup, late again. HAHAHAH ! I was never once early de luh ! :x My heels somehow, was going t breeeeakzxs. So i kept complaining t Maurice& kept spoiling other people's floor. HAHAH :x

Went t Vivo, went t find my heels. Didn't had shops that were nice for me, Charles& Keith were fucking crowded please ! :( I was stucked there yet didn't buy a single heels, omgwtfbbqzxs ! :( My heels were killing me, went t a shop * secret* bought 2 heels ! :B:B my pretty heels.

One for mummy& one for meeee. Bought one more for grandma & gotten their membership. LOL. Cui one. Headed t Pastamania w my new killer heels. :B Saw Nelson ! HAHAH. He chua tio caaan. :P

Ate& headed homeeee.

So I went out w killer heels that killed my pretty legs. Yet in th end I went home w pretty killer heels& pretty legs. Because I bought new heels.
Don't understand ah ? TOO BAD. :x

& Yes, Nicklaus will be featured once agaaaainzxs.
I'm gonna get my Fred Perry on 28 DECZXS.
i'm gonna get my blogshop stuffs next monthhhh.
I'm gonna get my LV in June, my birthday month ! HAHAHA.
I don't think he will buy luh, he just wna be featured.
HAHAHA

Bye people ! :)

i remember you,

th flashbacks of you, th memories.

yet i couldn't cry,

cause i forced myself t keep smiling.

You should be happy if you are like this, I become dull day by day.

2009-12-24T00:03:00.002+08:00

OUT W PAULETTE DARL & S TODAYZXS. :)

Special effect made from Cam. :)

Hello readers ! :)

Today's photos more on Paulette darl, as she's quite upset& got no mood t take picture, so i took for her ! HAHAHAH. & yes comments from ME, MYSELF AND I , CHANEL.C .
I think MOS Burger's Coke sucks 2themax. .-. utterly bitter. it's not even like MACdonald's coke, sweet& gggggiiiiiaaaaannnnnn t drink it again ! & Yup, I pretty like MOS Burger's lighting, as seen above. :) Feel that my skin is like fucking tender can ! HAHAHAH !

Okay lah ! enough of my silly comments.

Met Elene @ Cityhall for her items today. Headed back t Tiong t meet Paulette darl. Can see she's super upset. :( *cheerup my luv* We headed t buy MACdonalds& she boguht Mr. Bean *or jolly bean ? * LOL. Headed t my house, sat @ th living room & ate.

Headed t Dover t meet Tinglei, headed t Clementi t meet th rest. :) Went t buy my cosmetics while waiting for Mandy. Went t MOS Burger t slack since there was time still. Met Mandy& saw an idiotic arseholezxs so headed upstairs. Met Celia& headed t JP. Paulette darl wanted t get th SGD$75 bag. But it's OOS @ JP :(

So we headed back by MRT, S came along otw. :) Went t my house nearby coffeeshop t eat. *fucking felt like puking* it wasn't fresh @ all :( Only th coke la okay *HAHAHAH*. Slacked @ my house & yup, they went off. :)

For Paulette darl ;

Do cheerup 100x times. I know you're feeling v suck, v upset now. But darl, this isn't th way you were. no relationship will ever last forever as nothing's forever. Don't cry for him, cause he isn't worth your love. If he doesn't wna clarify, tell him fuck th wall& die. He's not th only one& yes S, Bingfu & MEEEE. We're always here, we'll be here for you. Casue that's what friends are for. & don't cry, hush. You know it isn't worth. Try getting over by diverting your attentino away like what you said. :) I'll meet you frequently so that you'll think of me only ! :x Smile alright ! Chanel's always here for you, my sweetest darl. :) Luv you 2themax, like always. :)

& Yes, Nicklaus is seriously one fucking lucky guy t be featured everyday til 28 Dec / 30 Dec.
Cause he said if I post everytime w his name up, my wishes will come true. LOL.
Pure sucker, he just wanted t be featured :x

Bye people ! :)

After hearing my darl being so upset,

i thought of you.

But I know, you're never th same, you'll never be.

cause, you're not who we both knew.

what hurts th most, was being so close.

2009-12-23T00:43:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's,

Today's,

Hello readers !
Supposingly there was a video up.
& Yes, I couldn't upload as it'll take a long time& it fuckingly made my firefox jam. -'- !
I changed blogskin, O: background credits t a girl name Tabitha. :)

Anyway, today I practically stayed @ home. Woke up @ 1pm + & saw Colonel beside me ! HAHAHA. He passed me my christmas present, Thanks ! It was a notebook that I had before. But nevermind, much appreciated. :)

Around 5pm, went t pass thing t ppl& my passbook cannot update ! OMGWTFBBQZXS. :( Mummy's gonna fix it by changing my bank book again. hahaha ! Dad, mummy& me had a *candlelight dinner* HAHAHAH. Super funny please, totally joke of th day.

Bro came home w Jiawei, Zhicong, Jack, Weijie. They brought th cake home & yup, they left for dinner first. Came back, blow candles& ate cake. They headed t Tiong Bahru Plaza t watch a 3 hour movie, avatar. hahaha !

Bought MAC back for me& prata for dad, ate & here I am ! :D
* I think I gave th most present for bro* HAHAAH.
His Fred Perry, his movie tickets is utterly cheap thanks t me !

HAHAHA ! Happy Birthday suckaaa.

Bye readers !
& Yes, FOLLOW MY BLOG ! :)

Simply go th my blog's sidebar, on th Follow Me ! Column, Click Follow. :)

What will happen then ?
In your dashboard, below your blogs, there will be a:

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So, why wait ? follow me now !

Nicklaus said he's gonna get me a LV bag& wallet & Fred Perry J.
For christmas& new year& birthday present.
Let's see whether this comes true. HAHAHA. :D

cause you ain't worth my love,

by i'm still holding on.

cause feelings are still strong.

you're not worth a better one,

cause you've hurt many deeply.

happy birthday brother.

2009-12-22T01:32:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ALOYSIUS.C !

Grow older liao, mature liao hor ! :D

Better treasure that SGD$160 Fred Perry Polo Tee I bought for you ! :)

Happy birthday ! Stay happy alwayzxs.

& YES,
My PLURK Friends all wish you a happy birthday !
Same goes for Maurice, Kenneth, Nelson, Paulette, Zixuan& Angela! :)

They all wished you a happy birthday ! :)

Webcam w that idiot, Zhicong. HAHAHAH !

*weijie's head is extra there !*

I'll never be that girl whom I've used to be.

*fucking unglam la, i know*

LAST BUT NOT LEAST,

My Brother is selling off this NUM Tee shirt !
BNWT, In NUM Plastic bag still ! :)
Selling it off @ $45.
Price Negotiable !
*NUM is selling @ $49.90 !
Do add my msn if you're interested !
like-astar@hotmail.com
Thank you v much ! :)
-

& Sorry reader, i'm lazy t post though.
I'm quite busy recently too. :(

Went out w Nelson today, went t post th blogshop stuffs. Headed t City Hall t meet a girl for her contacts. Headed t Somerset t meet another girl. :) Went t Cine, ate Pastamania& Nelson didn't eat ! :( We played 5-10 again. hahaha ! Disturbing, didn't fin th game as I was late. Yeah lah, late again.

Headed up t 3rd floor, Revoltage& Fred Perry. *was considering which t buy* So I kept asking Nelson, which one ? Revoltage is $50 +, Fred Perry $ 100 +. I still need buy flipflop ! :( So nelson asked me this : You think yourself luh, make your own decision. Which is more impt ? Your flipflop or brother's present.

In th end, yes, Fred Perry. .-. Brother's birthday is yearly, while my flipflops can wait. So I thought of buying tee for bro, in th end, much considers, bought th Fred Perry Polo Tee for him. $160 for a polo tee, cui. HAHAHA.

Kept telling Nelson how much i hate it, cause i couldn't get my flipflops. :( So headed t Sembawang t collect stocks. Headed back t Tiong& Nelson off for work while I'm off for home.

Happy Birthday once again sucker. :B

Bye readers !

heartfelts, it kills me inside.

i wna erase you, yet couldn't all these was so painful.

drown in love, drown in you.

2009-12-18T02:33:00.000+08:00

Hello readers ! :D

Yesterday, went out w Nelson. & yes, him. *he's obviously not my boyf luh.* Headed t Bugis. Supposed t meet Rachel, in th end she didn't reply. :( So walked around, went t NUM help bro find his havainas.

We headed t MACdonald& eat :D Played 5-10 :x SUPER HILARIOUS I TELL YOU. HAHAHA ! :x Headed t Citylink, went t NUM. th Ambassador, Marcus was disturbing. hahah ! Went back t Bugis. Met Jason, he uber cute& nice ! :D

We met Rachel, went t take stocks& meet Derrick. Headed back t Tiong. Nelson went t work ,I went home. Went out t Tiong Bahru Plaza t meet Derrick, see him eat dinner. hahah ! Then he sent me home, he went home. :O

Today,
nothing much, went t pass stocks. Met Nelson& bought th rose thing * last min meet* O: then slacked @ my house, & yes, super bored. D:

Rush this post, as my tummy is growling. :(
i wna go eat nao !
its 2am, wth.
bye readers !

th thoughts of you flashback. :(

i thought they wouldnt.

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2009-12-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

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2009-12-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hello readers. :B
I tell you ah, i'm super duper pissed today. :(
Something happened. .-.

Went t Plaza today, i forgot t bring my POSB Card, wth. So updated bank book, went home t take POSB Card& came back t Plaza t transfer money t Cheryl. Ate MAC for lunch. * yes mac again*

Headed home, was waiting for a idiot, Derrick t come one. In th end, he fuckingly dua me say he tomorrow then come. Okay lah, seem nevermind t you all. But if you'd known what had happend in between i'm sure you'll kp him 2themax.

So, fuck it. Made me so pissed off. Suddenly super duper sad. *machiam mood swing until v jialat i tell you D:* So i text Grace Bunnystar& friends. I luv Grace Bunnystar I tell you. She seriously made me cheerup. & Yes, not t forget th rest. Thanks guys ! :)

Bunnystarzxs always mine. :B Cause she's my BUNNYstar, she'll always be part of me, & i'll be too. :) * CHEERUP LA YOU. :B *

Jon& Boon Kiat came again, as usual, played w Boon Kiat's Itouch. He's cute la okay. *be jealous* HAHAHA. :x Crapped w them& watched videos. They study while I'm there watching them study. :O *i'm good right. :x* kidding ! HAHAHA. I was watching videos on Boon Kiat's Itouch while they're studying.

& No featured person today. :O
Bye readers ! :B

I don't know if its you or dan.
Still, thanks for texting me, boyflend. :)
Luvs.

i teared for you, yet again.
when will be th day i'll stop tearing for you.
i really wanna stop, but i couldn't.
tears flow so naturally.
heartfelts.

i really miss th old times, remember ?

2009-12-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

Hello readers !
I've got a hard time uploading all these fucking pictures thanks t blogger.
Fuck it ! D:
& yes, i seem like a one eye girl up there. LOLOLOL.

Cause I post w photos, & w/o = no entertainment rey. :(

Basically, rot @ home. Was supposed t meet Rachel today, end up not meeting. :O Meeting her on Wed, hopefully. :x Chat w Grace Bunnystar. She's like a insane ass lah ! Keep showing me emotions in text, making me don't know how t reply but t send a :B face t her. HAHAHA !

Afternoon, bro friends came. Boon Kiat& Jon. :O I went downstairs t 7-ELEVEN w my maid& get some food for them. *please say i'm nice cause i hate doing such thing :x* HAHAHA ! Actually, i'm hungry, thats why. hee. :x Bought 2 mash potato& sandwiches, coke for me& bro friends& Bro's sprite.

I tell you ah, there's this fucking insane boy. * i supposed his like 13 lah okay ? * he fuckingly shout OI two time @ me and act blur, cheebye one. .-. Fuck him up down left right. & guess what. He lives @ my block, OMGWTFBBQZXS. D: Fucking insane boy. * i'll presume he's a boy, cause he's fucking childish ! *

Went home, used lappy. Slacked w them. Boon Kiat was like so anti-social t me. & he's older than me by a lot ! O: I didn't know about it. O: Chat w them until 10.30pm ? & they headed for dinner while I slacked @ home. Didn't know what t blog about, so i started cam-whoring just for show. HAAHAH ! You know, i'm in home clothes la ! So embarrassed :x *shy* LOL !

& Yes, I luv Boon Kiat's Itouch ! so fun raaah :x
Alright, I promise t feature someone in my blog today. :D

HAZEL DARL. :D

Thanks, for being there when I needed someone.
Cause I didn't expect you t lend a helping hand @ that moment as we're not close.
You cheered me up when I cried so badly.
You tried ways and means t make him get out of my mind.
& yes I luv you. :) *hugs*

& Sudden thought, I miss boyflend. :(
Suddenly we drifted apart like last year how we did.
I think he won't read my blog, so nevermind.
Still, I miss him.

i don't know things will go in future.

yes, feelings are strong.

its worth th wait, taking one step at a time.

set me free, let me out of this pain inside.

2009-12-13T00:24:00.005+08:00

Hello readers ! :)
Wondering how i feel now ? Yes better. hahaha !

Okay, last night i was utterly sick. *eh REALLY HOR ! Doesn't mean today i not sick. :B * I vomited 2 times, sucks 2themax i tell you :( I felt so weak yesterday& i sure lost weight. This morning, i woke up w a uber blur face. My head hurts 2themax still. Slacked around, text my flends. :B

Was supposed t meet Nelson, & yes. He pangseh-ed me. wtf ! :( I didn't got pangseh for such a long time you know ! HHAHAHA. *oh well, nevermind* Went t get my stuffs. Ate MAC ! :B Hee, super tasteless. Know why ? *cause i'm sick right ! silly you. :x* HAHAHA !

After that headed t Queenswayzxs IKEA. Bought my chair ! * I told Zixuan t come, he didn't come. make me almost died you know :( * I got my new computer chair ! :B Fucking happy i tell you. But I'm not posting it up. heee. :D It's pink, yes fucking chiozxs. HAHAHA. Headed t Tiong Bahru t eat& went home ! :D

*I feel that my blog is a little boring nowadays, don't you all think so ? :(
I think my sickness made me totally no mood t blog, fuck it ! :(*

* PRAYS T ALL TH GODS, DEITIES, BUDDHAS & EVERY SINGLE THING THAT MAKES WISHES COME TRUE : PLEASEEE, let me heal ! :( I hate having headaches& vomiting& sick ! Let me be healthy for th next 6 months ! :B *
Hee, fucking lame lah. I know. HAHAHA ! :D

& yes, rest well Nelson ! Thanks for flying my kite for not telling me you're sick .HAHAHA.

& You're waiting for a picture isit ? :)
Here it is, my fucking sick face.
I didn't intend t take de luh ! just that i scared nobody read if i don't post picture :(

bunny,
i found out that after we broke up, i've learnt a lot of things.
& yes, seeing couples holding hands, kissing, so loving in public,
it makes me think of you.
but yet, i couldn't get any hug, nobody held me like how you did.
i feel no love, felt so lonely. i told myself i'll hate you.
it was just a lie, cause every time you did something which i found out,
i'll close one eye, i'll never flare up @ you for everything you did.
i flare up @ you when it really feels so uncomfortable inside.
i still have many things that i didn't say, i found out many things too.
yet, i know i wouldn't flare up. & i couldn't either.
if time went back, i wouldn't choose this path if th other path was t last w you happily.
if th other choice was t last w you& you being unhappy, i swear, i'll still take this path.
cause i don't want you t be unhappy, cause i know people may have a happy ending.
i know i don't. i know i won't get t be w you anymore. cause you've forgotten me.
i wasn't your ex, your friend, your anything. i'm just thin air t you.
seeing that you're happy now, i'm happy for you.
know i'm still crying over you, yet i told everyone i'm getting over you.
you wouldn't bother that i'm crying, i doubt you'll even come t this blog.
i don't wanna be w you again, cause i know i'll be hurt, i'll hurt you.
but i'm still missing you, cause i know i'll never get t talk t you anymore.
not even a friend we could be, but i didn't want this.
i still wanna contact you, you told me i'm your sister.
it doesn't seem so, cause you hate me, i disgust you, i bring troubles t you..
i miss you, do you even know..?
you're still th first place for me.
i'm sorry.

my big mistake, made my whole life turn upside down.

i'll never be able t love again.

no matter who i love, they won't love me back.

i'm the only one thats vulnerable, just for you.

2009-12-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

Nelson make fun of me& snap shot this photo. :B

my room. :D

my rooom.

my rooooom !

my hello kitty !

Hello readers ! :)
Sorry for not updating for th past few days ! :B
t be exact, it's only 3 days. .-. *not as if it was a month ago, silly me* hahaha !
Continue reading rey ! My readers from 1900 a day drop til 1700. how can you all like that ! :x *kidding*

Okayzxs, past few days, i won't elaborate much i guess ? :)
Wednesday,

Move house daay ! :D *Thanks Nelson for helping. :B*

Thursday,
Packing day ! *i've got nothing t do, so basically rot @ home.* Thanks Nelson for coming over again ! ahahaha.

Friday,
TODAYZXS.
Woke up super early t meet th blogshop people. :( Saw Nicklaus& friends in th MRT. hahaha. Headed back t tiong bahru. Super duper tired& having headache. :( Went t sleep& while I was sleeping, Aunt Eileen came O: Couldn't chat w her. Woke up, went for dinner, super duper hungry.

& Now I'm having a headache that kills. I'm feeling like vomiting, sucks. D:
Kill me please. :(

I'll update asap soon ! :) come back my readers ! Help me click on th advertisements from nuffnang, thanks truckloads ! :)
& Yes a picture for you guys, * my memories*

& BOYFLEND. me luvzxs you okay. :)

i miss that old you.

i miss everything of you.

yet i dont know how t make you miss me.

step forward towards me and you, to bade a last good bye.

2009-12-08T21:09:00.000+08:00

HELLO READERS ! :)
I'll not be updating for tomorrow, thursday & maybe friday.
Want to why ? :)
& Yes I'm moving house.
I won't be free& my connection will be cut off tonight.
So I can't update anything for you guys, but I promise t update before I go t my new house today about some sweeties of mine ! :)

& YES, NOT IN ORDER WHAT ALPHABETSHIT I upload randomly. :D

DARREN BOYFLEND !

*okay, its fake. he'll kill me if he sees this :x*

Thanks for being a gooooood flend ! :B

&& Thanks for accompanying me crap so much. hee.

& Thanks for uderstanding that I'm upset& you'd make me laugh w every single text.

I DONT KNOW WHY LAH. LOLOL

I know you luv me ! :B *ok la, kidding, otherwise i sure give you scold one :(*

Me luvzxs you !

DAOXIANG FLEEEEEND.

Sorry for keep you in suspense la !

It's a surprise actually. :)

Thanks for being there when I needed someone.

Thanks for being a good guy that never fails t crap w me.

Thanks for everything !

Last long w your girlf, :)

Me luvzxs you, as a flend la. :B

* build th trust boy, i'm sure you'll make it. :)*

GRACE BUNNYSTARZXS.

& ME LUV YOU 2THEMAX !

Cause you're one super duper nice girl.

Super sweet& everything. :B Best of th best bunnystar.

& Thanks for crapping w me so much !

Me luv you, & yes, my lesbian. *kisses* :B

EDWARDDDD !

*Alright, though can't really see your face la, but still I made th effort t find your photo ! *

Thanks for comforting me always, I know you're a great friend.

But still, I sense something's wrong.

We'll talk it out another time alright ? :)

Promise you.

me luv you ! & yes, i'm th missy you're th servant. LOLOL !

Take care lah, get well soon !

NELSONZXS !

Yes you rock 2themax.

Cause you never fail t help me out.

& like tomorrow, you're gonna help me move house, which none of my firends are. .-.

* how pathetic i am* NO OKAY.

Cause I've got a good flend like you !

Thanks nelson ! Luv you, as a flend la ! LOLOLOL. :)

ABIGAIL BAOBEI.

My all time favourite, cause you never fail t make me laugh.

Even during my breakup, I told you i feel like crying.

you disturbed me !

*hugs& kisses*

Luv you 2themax ! More than Daniel ! :x

GARY , ZERO , KOSONG. :x

& You'd be thinking : why th fuck am i here ?*

& Yes, cause you encouraged me. :)

You know that when i face him i'll cry, I tried not t.

& I didn't in th end, cause i know you won't beat him.

You just don't wna see your friends get hurt !

Thank, luv you as a flend. :D

C !

MY bestzxs bestzxs C ! :P

You never fail t be there, be it midnight or day.

You'll chat w me on th phone, you'll find me.

You'll make me laugh & yes i love you !

Thanks C, i luv you 2themax too !

* cannot be more than edwin ley. :( *

Cindy Aiai/Buibui !

Thanks for being there.

& Yes, even made th effort t tutor me, t come downstairs just t see me cry.

& hear my rantings, cause i'm crying over a breakup.

You know that i luv you. :)

& I'll love more than eugene. :B

luv you 2themaxxx ! :D

Regin Sister ! :)

* yes i know our friendship ended*

But you'll still be my sister, forever :)

Cause you never fail t see my cry too.

For 3 hours, and being late for home.

You're a good flend, i didn't treasure you though.

Still, me luv you ! :)

Babyen. :)

My baby, yes mummy luvs you !

Cheerup for mummy will be here.

& Yes, i luv you.

Stay positive always, cause anything, I'll be here.

& I'll be a text away, a call away & 10+ MRT Stops away. :x

I luv you !

UNCLE DANZXS.

* surprise or not ? i bet no lor :( *

Thanks for disturbing me always, t cheer me up !

& Yes please thank me for trying t keep myself awake t text w you. :B

You're th best of th best ! :)

Luv you as my uncle dan always. :D

& Lastly, Victor. :)

Yes you've made a great impact in my life.

* okay i know you fucking hate me& you'll hate me more for putting your photo.*

But still, i'll put it no matter how much you hate me :)

Cause I know, you're someone that encouraged me t lead a simple life.

Not a complicating life, & i know i'm nothing t you.

You'll be a good friend of mine always.

I luv you. :)

i'll remember you always. :)

for being such a great boyf in th past.

the scar that can never be seen are the hardest to heal.

2009-12-08T01:13:00.000+08:00

Sneak Preview of my new house ! :B

Hello readers ! :)
Photos of my new house are just previews :x
Cause, its still renovating, i'm moving house on wed ! :D
&& Today went out w Grace Bunnystar ! :B

Met Grace @ 11am, *supposingly was 10.30am but i was late, yes again.* Dont judge me hor ! Not as if you all never late before meh ! :x HAHHAA. Headed t POSB t do th Geo Lens stuffs. It takes forever de lor ! LOLOL. Grace stand there v long for me.

Headed t interchange t take bus 7, you know she made my bus go ! :( *kidding la ! LOL* its a inside joke okayzxs. hahaha ! Bus-ed t bugis. Saw Priscilla & her friend. :)

Headed th 2nd floor, i saw a bag, chio pleaseee. :x Walked around, only bought hairband& clips. .-. *pathetic pleaseee* Ate th pancake, luvs it 2themax ! :B

Went t Junction t walk, saw Enqi, Everlyn, Weiting& friends. :) Headed t Far East w Grace, had a hard time getting there :( Cause i'm a road idiot, & i didn't expect her t be one too. HAHAHAH !

So yes, lost (?) But Chanel's smart, go Dhoby Ghaut take bus. :x Saw my ex, Sean. :)

& Far East saw Xiaofang, Lina, Roslinda, Jueyin. O: & a few more, forgot who liao. LOLOL. Anyway, we walked there for hours, but nothing seems t attract us. So yes, headed back t Clementi w blisters. :(

But we've decided t get something, ITS A SECRET ! :x * lets keep you in suspense for 2 weeks. :B *

& YES BOYFLEND, I know you'd be reading.
So, ME LUVZXS YOU ! :)

it took you hours to let go.

it took me months t cry.

i dont know how t let go, teach me.

this was something i yet to know, i yet to do.

2009-12-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hello readers ! :)
I'm here t update about yesterdayzxs.

Morning I met Nelson @ Clementi MRT & I WASN'T LATE. *okay lah, cause I'm late always. LOL.* Headed over t simei t meet Ms Chanel. Collected th payment& guess what, Nelson's dm are all around th exits. Fuck de ley ! Make me walk carpark. :x

We saw Zixuan they all& Zixuan sucks, CAUSE HE DIDN'T SEE ME YOU KNOW. I'm like so red luh ! HAHAHAH. Nevermind, Nelson accompanied me t Tanah Merah. He headed back t school for exams. Thanks Nelson . :)

I went t meet a blogshop girl @ Bishan. Met Edward, was supposedly go Tampines de ley ! In th end go Bishanzxs. Ate MACDONALDS ! Edward owe me a meal. Slacked, then Edward go bring his dog come. SCARE MY MUMM'YS DAUGHTER. D: *practically yes, me.* But Snowy *th dog* don't bite, don't lick. LOL.

Edward needed t go Lakeside(?) Headed by cab w him. It was near my cousin's house ! :O Saw ex boyf, he totally ignored my presence(?) Don't know either. Went t 7-eleven& bought coke w Edward. I crapped alot t Edward, I think he's going crazy if I crap more. But nevermind, cause he crap more than I did @ th playground. LOL.

Took185 w Edward t Clementi t meet a blogshop girl. Walked home, Edward sent me home. Thanks for th 3 presents & sending me home. & Thanks for taking your dog t scare me. .-.

Chat w boyflend, boyflend sucks big time. Forget t text me somemore ! HAHAHAH.
Oh well. :x

Today,

Met Joey Cutestuff t pass her th clothes. Went t Alice there did eyebrooowzxs. :D Headed home, was supposed t go out @ 4pm t meet another girl. But it rained ! :( Still went, but didn't get caught in th rain. :D Sold away th everlast watch ! :)

Slacked @ home chatting w boyflend. HAHHAH. Did th blogshop stuffs& yes something happened. Okay, nothing much but it's about ex boyf ? Idk. I cannot care either, oh well. & Yes I cried. .-. Okay, and then I got MACDONALDS for dinnneeerzxs. *i machiam everyday eat right ? BUT NO, cause there's nothing nice t eat riaozxs. *

& Yes, byebye readers.
Cause I'm feeling v upset & unhappy.
& Fuck yoooooooou. * okay not you reading la! :P *

well, thanks for hurting me.
over and over again.
never failed, still i cried.
everything seemed so worthless.

Don't ever give up if you still want to try,
Don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know.
Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go.

i miss you, but you'll never be.

2009-11-30T22:36:00.003+08:00

Let these photos do th saying :)
I'm lazy to post.
Bye.

i've broke down.
you've walked away.
i'm dyingi n th inside now.

Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.

2009-11-29T19:10:00.004+08:00

HELLO READERS !
Okay, practically I've got no photos ! :(
I didn't go out luh, I'm like super bored @ home.
Someone jio me out please ! :x *just kidding* HAHAHAH.

Th photo above, is my buibui *inserts millions of heart* sent t me. She said that this photo describes me most. HAHAHA. Okay lah, I agree okayzxs :D

Stoned @ home almost th whole day recently. * I'm lazy t go out *
Good thing is, i don't even need t bother what clothes t wear, my money flying away.
Bad thing is, i keep getting pin point& scolded by an idiot here. .-.
Whatever ! HAHAHA. :D

Anyway, do support this blogshop ! :D

&& DON'T ask me whether is this my blogshop.
Cause NO ! It's my friend's, Jowena's.

She is using my blogskin& similar url cause I allowed her. :)
She is using my photo cause there's no suitable photo t set as background !
SO, STOP ASKING ! LOL.
I'm not her twin, neither is she my clone.

Bye readers ! :)

th fragile me, broke down.
cause, you left, you hurt, you insult.
and now i'm left w nothing, but a broken heart.

they say loving you is my biggest mistake
but how can it be so wrong if it feels so right?
if ever i made a mistake,
its not that i love you,
its thinking that someday you'll love me when you won't anymore..

i hate you, cause you're not fit to be.

2009-11-29T00:19:00.004+08:00

i hate you, fucking dog.
fuck you, fucking fucker, FUCKING LOSER